My Distraction {Completed}

~12~

Sam's pov

I got ready for the day and I was in a good mood I went downstairs "hey slut" my mother said "hi" I said while grabbing a granola bar I got used to the names that my parents call me I finished the granola bar and grabbed my backpack "bye I'm going to school" I didn't get an answer back like always I went out the door and walked to school I always enjoy walking it was peaceful and it also gives me time to think
I walked through the school doors and I walked by myself because I don't have friends I used to have this one friend Kat but she had to move she always helped me through everything but when she moved things got worse. I shut my locker and the bell rang "hey fag" Brennen said 'dont listen to them' 'if they try and hurt you I'll stop them' 'what they say isn't true' Kat always said I kept those words in mind but it doesn't matter anyway "hey slut he's talking to you" Elton said and shoved me into the locker I yelled in pain I looked up and noticed everyone was here except Devyn "listen next time" Aaron said and kicked me they all laughed and started punching kicking and yelling "hey babe what's happening" Devyn asked Corey he punched me "oh your with this loser" she said and frowned they all snickered "guys there's a teacher coming" Devyn said Aaron punched me Corey kicked me Elton kicked me Brennen punched me "your nothing but a mistake remember that faggot" Brennen said and kicked my hard in the stomach and they all went to class. 'thats one way to bring my mood down' I thought "GET TO CLASS NOW!" a teacher yelled at me "y-yes ma'am" I got up and got to class.

"Oh Sammy that's horrible" Colby said after I explained what my dream was last night I nodded "is it ok if I ask why else they bullied you" I nodded "well as you know it's because I crossdress and then they found out that I was a little and then some how figured out that I was gay" "oh that's horrible I'm so sorry" "it's okay do you know what's wierd" "what" "so whenever they would start to hurt me they all seem to have this glimpse of guilt in their eyes and after they seem upset except for Brennen" "oh that is wierd do you think you can ever forgive them" "not all of them" "what do you mean" "I mean I would only forgive Devyn she was normally not there and if she was she never hurt me and she would seem very upset and tell them to stop cause they would get caught" "did she still bully you" "she only called me names but I got used to them and they never hurt me anymore but when she does I know she doesn't feel good after cause she was always hesitant to do it" "oh ok, so you got super scared because they bullied you untill you couldn't handle it anymore" "y-yeah" "I'm sorry" "it's ok it wasn't your fault" we sat in silence for a while "hey you wanna go to the park and take Stormy" "sure"

We got to the park and I watched Colby skate and right now Stormy is asleep next to the bench. "Sam!" I jumped "oh hey Tara you scared me" "oh sorry are you doing any better" "yeah" "hey Tara is Jake with you" "oh yeah he should be here-" "hey guys" Jake cut her off "any second" she finished I giggled "hey Jake" "oh Sam are you ok" "yeah I'm better" he nodded and started talking with Colby "hey Sam can I ask you something" Tara asked "umm a-about w-what" "something about you" "i-id rather n-not" "please I really want to know" "i-is it a-about why I g-got so scared y-yesterday" "no" "t-then I d-dont w-want t-to k-now" I started to breath heavy "Sam are you ok" Tara asked I shook my head and stated to breath faster it felt like my throat was closing and my chest was getting heavy Stormy started to bark and whine "Colby!!" Tara yelled "wh- oh my god sam are you ok" I shook my head and started to tear up "Sammy try took take a deep breath" I tried but it wasn't helping "can I take your hand" I nodded and he took it and put it on his chest "focus on my heart and take deep breaths" I nodded and started to take deep breaths "your doing great Sammy" Colby soothed after a couple minutes I finally calmed down and hugged Colby he hugged back "what happened" Jake asked "all I know is that he had a panic attack but I don't know what happened" Colby said "Tara what happened you were with him" "well I asked him if I could talk to him about something and he asked if it was why he got scared and I said no and he said he didn't want to know what I wanted to asked and I begged him and the whole time he was stuttering really badly and then he started breathing heavy" Tara explained Colby nodded "whatever it was he thought it was going to be bad" "Sammy did you think she was going to find out" I nodded he sighed "Sammy you should tell them" "N-NO!" I yelled "Sammy calmed down" "s-sowwy" my eyes went wide "just tell them" "tell us what" Jake asked "n-no" I sobbed "Sammy just tell them they're gonna find out another way" I sobbed more "hey Colby maybe don't force him to tell us if he doesn't want to" Jake said Colby sighed "Sammy why is it bad if you tell them" he whispered "c-cause they w-wont w-wike me a-anymwore" I sobbed he sighed "hey guys could you give us a minute" "yeah sure" "ok" they left and Colby turned back to me "ok Sammy I promise you they will like you" "n-no pwease d-dont make mwe" he sighed and rubbed his face in frustration and no one said anything so I broke it "d-daddy?" He looked at me "yes Sammy" "are woo mad at mwe" he sighed "I'm not mad I just don't get why you won't tell them" "I-i jus get scared otay, when evwyone knew at my old schwool no one liked mwe I was weft awone" "Sammy I understand that I told you they will like you"  "WOO DON'T GWET IT!" I screamed "Sammy calm down" "NO!" I walked off and sat at the tree I usually sat at and I hugged my knees and cried into them