here I am again
singing the same song on repeat
here I am again
with the bloody sword at my feet
the blood is from the battles I have won
and the scratches in the metal are from all I have lost.
there is barely a sword left to fight with.
but that doesn't mean fighting without a weapon would be any better.
the moment I have to start accommodating for the state of my sword
is the moment I will drop it
and fight with tooth and nail.
these words are all meaningless
because I am sitting here doing nothing
making pretty thoughts go through our heads
and drowning out all that I am capable of.
let me explode
and burn
and get ripped apart
I want to feel.
watch me die
and come back to life
and breath
I am alive.
hear my screams at night
watch me toss and turn under my blanket
call my name and cry when I don't reply
I am here.
it's time to hit the road now
I feel so torn leaving all this behind
but the unknown is where I want to go.
let me be.
if I take you with me,
I will love you forever.
if I leave you behind,
I will remember you for a very long time.
if you choose to come with me,
I will never let you go.
it's time for me to leave.
this is a goodbye.
forever.
YOU ARE READING
sat by the ocean
Poetryphotos are not mine!!! caution: chapter two has an image of a real animal skull. just in case anybody would be uncomfy! (continued onto Laying By The Ocean)
