don't know what I am,
but I'm supposed to be
the girl in all their dreams
let her overtake me
don't know who I am,
but I'm supposed to be
a walking nightmare
trauma overtakes me
I want the courage to make a new start,
let me fight dragons, claw out my own heart
I need a new life, give me a new start
promise I won't be good,
promise not understood
promise I'll be fine,
even if I'm dying
don't know what I am,
but I'm supposed to be
productive, haywire
smart, as I should be
don't know who I am,
but I'm supposed to be
quiet, submissive,
nothing to call 'me'
don't know how I am
supposed to win this
when there is no war
there is no lover's kiss
don't know where I am
or where I'm supposed to be
confusing orders
always confuse me
I want the courage to take a new stance,
the last man standing, a chance to end this pain
I need a new self, I need to take a chance
promise I won't be good,
I am not understood
promise I won't die,
I am always fine.
don't know what I am,
something's inside of me
don't know who I am
it's all confusing
don't know how I am
I can't even feel
don't know where I am
does this have to be real?
don't know what I am,
but I'm supposed to be
the girl in all their dreams
let her overtake me
don't know who I am,
but I'm supposed to be
a walking nightmare
trauma overtakes me
I want the courage to make a new start,
let me fight dragons, claw out my own heart
I need a new life, give me a new start
promise I won't be good,
promise not understood
promise I wasnmt fine,
even if I died.
YOU ARE READING
sat by the ocean
Poetryphotos are not mine!!! caution: chapter two has an image of a real animal skull. just in case anybody would be uncomfy! (continued onto Laying By The Ocean)
