Maybe I miss you

Why did you leave me?

a/n: There are some song recommendations but they are not relevant to the storyline. So you can skip them without missing anything.

The three of them decided to order some food. They ate together and had good conversations and it was as if Louis and Harry never went on a break.

In order to give them some privacy, Gemma decided to leave for a few hours. But she made sure to let them know that she will be back later just in case things would get out of hand and Harry wanted her moral support.

After Gemma had left the boy went to Harry's room and they cuddled in Harry's bed. Harry laid in Louis's arms. He could his heartbeat and smiled.

Louis: "What are you smiling about?"

Harry: "From all the music I wrote and heard over the years your heartbeat is still my favourite sound."

Louis blushed and couldn't help but smile at the unusual compliment.

Louis: "How comes?"

Harry: "It calms me down and I feel safe when I hear it. It feels like home."

Louis pulled Harry even closer to his heart and whispered in his ear.

Louis: "That's because it is your home. You will always live in my heart no matter what stupid decision I'll make, my heart will always be your home."

Harry smiled but his smile faded shortly after he got lost in his thoughts.

Harry: "Lou?"

Louis: "Haz?"

Harry: "Why did you leave me?"

Louis heartbeat fastened and Harry could tell that his muscles had tightened. He seemed nervous and unsure of what he was about to say.

Louis: "I ..."

Louis stopped took a deep breath and continuted.

Louis: "I don't know. I thought that it would be the best for me to be on my own for a bit, but ... but it wasn't. I was just stupid to think that you were the reason that I feel off. I'm sorry."

Harry drew small circles on Louis tiny stomach which relaxed the small man instantly. Harry smirked once he realised the power his touch had. Physical touch was enough to relax Louis and Harry knew that compared with their mental conaction nothing could break them.

Harry: "The moment you mentioned a break my heart broke. I thought I would lose you forever."

Harry's voice was calm and he spoke with good intentions. He didn't want Louis to feel bad he knew that the only way to make this relationship work would be communicating. So he did.

Harry: "Everything inside me wanted to scream and hold you close to me in order to make you stay, but I didn't."

Louis looked at Harry, tears in his eyes.

Louis: "Why?"

Harry stared into Louis's ocean blue eyes. A tear ran down his cheek.

a/n: I just had to do it ;)

Harry: "Cause I love you. And the only thing that I want more than to be with you, is for you to be happy. And when you told me that ..."

Harry had to swallow before he could go one.

Harry: "And when you told me, that you felt like you were losing yourself, I knew that I needed to let you go. I knew that you needed some time but fuck, it hurted like bloody hell."

At this point Harry was crying too. Louis wiped Harry's and his own tears away and placed a kiss on Harry's cheek.

Louis: "I'm sorry that I put you through this. It was unfair. I should have considered your feelings before making decisions that effect both of us."

Harry's lips formed a small smiled and Louis mirrored it immediately.

Harry: "Yes, you should have considered my feelings and we should have talked about our feelings beforehand, but you felt down and we all do stupid shit when we are sad. Let's just not make this mistake again and work on our communication. Okay?"

Louis nodded and leaned close to Harry.

Louis: "Can I kiss you?"

Harry looked into Louis's eyes and although he wanted to kiss Louis in this moment he decided to deny the kiss.

Harry: "Later. I need to feel all the emotions that I have right now and kissing you would push them away and we can't do this any longer. We have to confront our emotions even when it hurts."

Harry could tell that Louis was pumped but tried to hide it.

Louis: "You're right Haz. I'm just not used to confronting negative emotions. I normally just push them away."

Harry: "I know baby. I dent to do this too, but I want this to work. I want us to work and therefore we need to work through our emotion. Even if it sucks."

They laid there cuddling, crying and comforting each other with their presents. They spoke about everything that came to their mind, even when it hurt. This went on for hours and it was very exhausting and tiring but they got through it and their relationship felt stronger then ever before once they had shared all their fears and feelings.

They were still cuddled up in bed, their eyes red from crying, when Gemma came back. She went upstairs and knocked at the door.

Gemma: "I hope you are not "busy" because I'm back."

Louis and Harry cracked up and it felt good to have Gemma around since she brightened their mood.

Harry: "No come inside we are just chilling."

Gemma entered the room and froze.

Gemma: "Harry your okay? Have you been crying?"

Harry nodded and only in this moment Gemma realised that Louis had cried too.

Gemma: "What happened? Why were you crying?"

The boys told Gemma everything they did and talked about and Gemma sat there and listened in owe.

Gemma: "That. That right there. Talking about the painfull stuff. That's relationship goals. I'm really proud of you."

Gemma jumped into the bed and snuggled her brother and his boyfriend before they went downstairs to spend the rest of the day together.

a/n: I hope you liked it :) I'm not sure how I should go on. Should H&L jump full on in right away or should they stay a bit more distant after everything that had happened? What would you want to happen?