Skz Imagines 🖤

we lost the summer - I.N.

We lost the summer. Yang Jeongin

You were annoyed with your boyfriend. Just after their survival show he promised to make time for you, but now with a comeback lined up and the heavy pressure on their shoulders , cuddles really couldn't fit into the schedule tailored for him. You knew what you signed up for, when you started dating him but you couldn't help but ask yourself, did you deserve this? Waiting for a man who can't make time for you?

Your friends couldn't help but tell you again and again. And yes, your unsettling feeling in your stomach didn't help at all. You lost the feeling of actually being in a relationship and you hated it. You didn't want a hot girl summer, but the way this was going you probably would need it after all.

Since cuddles were such a luxury, you were that desperate to even sit down and have a cup of coffee with him. You hated that you were the one who had to break his heart but it needed to be done. You needed the sanity that you were slowly losing from yourself and knew that he was one of the reasons it was slipping from your fingertips.

So there you were, your eyes glistening with tears, trying to find Jeongin. He told you that he would be wearing a beanie or hat of some sort to conceal his identity and your eyes couldn't stop looking at the door searching for hats and beanies.

Instead you could only hear your phone vibrating way too many times before it caught your attention. When you finally picked it up you saw that it was indeed the guy you were waiting for.

" Where are you? " You asked biting your lip in anxiousness, your eyes not leaving the door.

" Hey can you meet me at my dorm? I've been recognised twice already. " He asked and you felt your annoyance on your face. But you made sure your anger didn't bubble to the surface because you needed to do this in person. It's the respect he deserves.

" Okay. I'll meet you at your rooftop. " You didn't want to risk being seen by the other members because it would ruin the relationship you guys had and you wouldn't feel like saying anything.

Finally after huffing and puffing untill the rooftop you found your beanie man at last, a smile permanently attached to his face unlike your own face. You gulped, in fear of what was to come and held back your emotions.

" Hi baby! " He said almost rushing to get into your embrace. Once he snuggled into your neck you couldn't help but think this was the last time. The last time you would be overwhelmed by his scent, the last time your heart would beat in favour of his.

Breaking apart you needed to take a breath, making sure you wouldn't regret this in the future.

" Jeongin, we need to talk. "

" Sure tell me. "

" I can't keep moving mountains for you. "

" Huh? "

" I can't keep moving mountains for you Jeongin. How long? How long have you seen us even interacting in the bare minimum? "

" It's only for these few weeks. I'll be able to spend more time with you after this comeback. I promise. "

" And what if you have a new project coming up? I can't keep letting myself do this. I don't even feel like I'm in a relationship with you anymore. We both are in the same city yet I feel like we are in a long distance relationship. "

" That isn't true. I try to make time for you."

" I'm not saying you don't. I'm saying the way this is going I don't think I can keep seeing you as freely as I used to. And I hate it. I hate that you don't approach me when something is wrong. I hate that I'm not next to you when something is wrong with you and I have to search for you when something is wrong with me. "

" You know how my career is? I can't risk it."

" And I can't let myself be like this. I deserve better. I deserve someone who puts me first. I want to be cared about, prioritised, and be taken care of. I can't keep waiting on the edge of nowhere for you to pop up or wait for you to actually give a damn about us."

He finally took his hands in yours, not being able to say anything back, looking into your eyes now waiting to spill the tears you had been holding back and you could feel that he was expecting the next couple of words.

" Let's break up, Jeongin. It's the best for the both of us. "

" No. No. I can't. I'll work harder for us. Just please no. "

" If you work harder I'll only feel like I'm a distraction for your career. Please. Let me go Jeongin please."

" No you said you would fight for me. You have to. You knew what you were getting into when I became a trainee. "

" I wasn't prepared for this. I don't think anyone would be. " You solemnly nodded.

He took your face into his, placing his forehead onto yours and pecked you softly as if you were about to break. You couldn't help but lean into the kiss as well knowing it was the last one that you would share. You pulled back only when you tasted the salty tears on your lips and realised he was crying.

You hated the sight of it and you knew you were gonna break any second. You kissed his forehead wishing him good luck and left the rooftop. The sun rays and your tears blinding your sight signalling that it was summer soon. You couldn't help but look back and think,

We lost the summer.

We lost each other.