HIDDEN | KTH

51

"You know what Taehyung, it is raining in Bangladesh. I mean it is not raining exactly, it was drizzling just a few minutes ago and currently rapid wind is blowing almost taking me away with it. I love the rains; it is my favorite season of all the seasons. It feels like, I am in heaven when little drops of rain touch my skin. It just washes off all my pains, stress and tensions. It soothes my soul and gives relief to my heart. I feel calm and peaceful when rapid wind touches my skin. I feel the wind is embracing me tightly to given its all comfort and love. The people of my religion says, “ It rains when Allah becomes happy or really pleased with us. I personally think Allah is showering us with all the love and affection he has for us. The cold breeze just relaxes my heart and soul and makes me alive again. I literally wait for this season. But today the rain hit me differently. I don’t know why, I was missing you more today.

As if you were with me all day. I mean, I felt your presence was with me. today evening, when I went to the balcony cold wind hit my face and I felt calm and relaxed inside my heart. Suddenly my heart said, Taehyung and right at that moment rapid wave of wind hit my body but to my utter surprise the wind came from a different direction. I closed my eyes and felt you hugged me being the wind. I know sometimes, I imagine a lot of impossible things but I genuinely felt it. as if you were gently embracing me with all your affection and softness. I melted in that cold weather. It was drizzling a bit my I recalled your name and not being surprised, the rain fall rapidly drenching me all over. I spread my arms to feel each drop of you. You were being rain to me"

I don’t know that I am in love or anything. But yeah, I don’t understand how can a person need someone’s warmth and comfort without even spending a single moment with that person. How can people want to feel someone’s presence around them without even meeting them earlier? How can people want to listen to someone without even getting close to that person? How can a person becomes someone’s habit without even knowing him properly.  I don’t know if this is love or any kind of attraction. But you know what; I love this attraction now. You have become my habit. I found your invisible presence around me when I need someone to hold me. I have never been attached to any person like this but you are different. You are comfortable. In one word you are my safe place.

I may never be able to hold you, feel your breaths against my face, hear your giggles or stare at your beautiful eyes lovingly. I may not be able to secure you in a warm and comforting and I might not be able to hold your hands and wipe your tears, heal your each and every wounds. I might not make you laugh or feed you the food cooked by me. I might not be able to make your every birthday special, I might not understand your emotions and feelings but my heart will always pray for your happiness and well being. My heart will always want you to love your wife dearly

"Rain Is Almost Like A Lover Sound That Pours Earth’s First Melody In Your Ears, Freshness That Loads Life Into Your Monotony Catharsis Better Than A Church Confession Trouble Draining Down Your Body Like Rebirth, Heavenly Raw Smell That Reaches The Soul, Almost Like A Lover"

 
you are mine, in this moment, you are mine,
tomorrow, things may or may not remain the same,
maybe something happens that you don't remain yourself,
maybe something happens that I don't remain myself.

maybe our paths diverge,
and we get lost while walking.

and I'll still love you,
I'll still love you.
I'll die for this love,

যাও পাখি যারে উড়ে,
তারে কইও আমার হয়ে
চোখ জ্বলে যায় দেখবো তারে,
মন চলে যায় অদূর দূরে।
যাও পাখি বলো তারে,
সে যেন ভোলে না মোরে,
সুখে থেকো ভালো থেকো,
মনে রেখো এ আমারে।

সোনার ও পালঙ্কের ঘরে,
লিখে রেখে ছিলেম দ্বারে
যাও পাখি বলো তারে,
সে যেন ভোলে না মোরে
সুখে থেকো ভালো থেকো,
মনে রেখো এ আমারে।

" WRITTEN IN ONE OF THE WALLS "

to be continued