Chapter 165

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MILO’S P.O.V

My eyes gently flicker open, the terrifying thought that last night was all some kind of perfect fucking dream hits me and I half expect to find myself opening my them in the manor, but instead I am greeted with the only view I ever want to see in the morning.

Josh sleeping peacefully with his arms still wrapped tightly around my body.

God, I really couldn’t be anymore in love with him.

He snores gently as I stroke my fingertips along his temple and down to his jaw. I’m not sure what time it is but I I can tell by how high the sun is that we’ve definitely fucking slept in, it won’t be long before Liam gets here now.

I had this whole plan to go out this morning and get him breakfast from one of the places down the road but I can’t bear to fucking leave him right now.

Look at him, could you leave this bed with him looking like that? No.

Last night... Oh fuck, last night.

If life was a box set and you could go back to relive your favourite episodes over and fucking over again, then last night would be my most burnt out disc. It doesn’t get better than that, it just fucking doesn’t.

I brought him here because I wanted to show him how much I fucking love him, only for it to end up being a night where he showed me exactly how much he loves me.

He said it.

He actually said the fucking words...

I wouldn’t have cared if he never said them to me, I understood completely why he struggled so much and I don’t fucking blame him, I was just happy that he was showing it with his actions.

But then I watched those three simple words leave his lips and I’ve never felt power like it. I don’t think I’ve ever been that overwhelmed. No, I know I haven’t... I fucking cried, I’ve never done that for any person I’ve been with.

It’s not that I haven’t been loved, in a lot of ways my life has been easier than so many other people’s. I’ve always known that I have people around me that love me, but this is different.

This is true.

True love. First love. Only love.

How many people get to have the person they've loved their entire life fall in love with them too?

Not enough who deserve it. I’m so fucking lucky... and he's so fucking perfect.

There is something so surreal when I think back on last night. I’ve heard people talk about the difference between sex and making love before but I don’t think I truly understood it until now.

That connection was so much more than physical, everything so much deeper than just my body feeling exposed; I was his and he was mine.

It felt unbelievable, better than fucking unbelievable... It felt... natural. Like I finally understood exactly who I am in that moment because all the pieces that had been lying around unmatched finally found a way to slot themselves together.

No pushy labels or someone trying to force me into a box, I’m just what I’ve always been – his.

Josh’s lashes flutter but his eyes don’t open even when he tilts his head to press his lips against my palm.

“Good morning you.” His raspy morning voice does things to me that he'll never understand, I need to start recording him or something so that I can keep these moments for when I need them later. I’m not sure I’ll make it through college without that.

“Morning handsome.” He lays his head back down against the pillow, letting my hand fall to the side of his neck and placing his own over the top to keep it in place. Sometimes I have this weird feeling that I’m overly clingy and tactile with him, but then we have moments like this where I realise he craves my touch as much as I crave his. “How are you feel–”

I don’t get time to finish my sentence before he attempts to twist towards me and I see the pain instantly show itself on his face.

Shit.

Immediately, I let go of his cheek and move my hand to the base of his spine, rubbing my flat palm against the skin over where I’m trying to soothe away the ache. I did my fucking research and I know that when you haven’t done that for a while... or ever before... It can be uncomfortable or even seriously fucking painful afterwards.

I fucking hate seeing him in pain. I went too fucking hard... He was just... and the noises he was making... Fuck, I just couldn’t stop.

“How bad is it?” He hums contentedly at my hand rubbing against the bottom of his back, the gentle smile on his face forcing me to smile back but I’m still not fucking happy.

“I’m fine Miles, I’m just-”

“Oh wait, I know what to do!” I jump up off the bed, going over to the large bowl bath and setting it to run deep and hot. This should work the same way right?

I hear him chuckling from the bed and don’t miss the slight hint of annoyance in his voice that I’m not laying there next to him anymore.

“What are you doing Miles?” I ignore him for a moment, going into the bathroom and collecting anything that can pass for bubble bath to add to the water.

“Running you a bath. Whenever Lee complains that she’s got pain in her back, which is like once a month, Jayce runs her a bath and just feeds her doughnuts... Shit, I’ll go get doughnuts!” He needs doughnuts.  Maybe a bear claw. I’ll just get him every kind of pastry that I possibly can until this gets better.

Josh bursts out into hysterical laughter, edging his body closer to the end of the bed but wincing in a way that makes my stomach flip with fucking guilt.

He spots my distress and shakes his head, grabbing both my hands and pulling them towards him until I’m standing firmly between his legs. I should probably put some shorts on right...

“You are really fucking cute you know.” I am not cute. Josh presses his lips down against my abs, the guilt that was floating around in there rippling to the surface. “Firstly, what Al goes through is very fucking different....”

I know that Josh, I live with two fucking women. I get the plumbing is fucking different.

Lived... lived with two women.

“Secondly,” he reaches up and places his hand behind my neck to bring my head down onto his. “Don't feel guilty, please don’t. Last night was fucking incredible... Being with you... it was more than I realised it fucking could be. I love you, I fucking love you and being with you is the best fucking thing that has ever happened to me. I don’t want you to feel anything else but how much I fucking love you.”

Damn he’s good...

He pulls us both back gently onto the bed until I’m laying with my head on his chest and my legs wrapped around his fucking gorgeous body.

It really was amazing... and he really does love me.

“But, if it’s really affecting you that badly Miles, then I guess we could just never ever ever ever do it again.” My head shoots up from his chest to face him, only to see that cunning smirk plastered across his face.

Oh he’s funny. We both know that it’s fucking happening again, if he wasn't in pain it would be happening right fucking now because now I’ve had him, I’m never being without him again... Watching him like that was too fucking good.

He laughs at my poorly masked expression, pulling us both into a kiss but still smiling until the moment he lets me go again. “I should probably ring Al and see how Liam is.”

I shake my head. “He’ll be with Brie by now, I promised that he could come here and use the pool today, but her client needs the house back tomorrow so we can’t stay here again tonight. They should be here soon though.”

Josh nods, that smile he gets every time he talks about Liam glowing back from his face. It’s only been a day but I miss our little man already, this is the longest I’ve been away from him since the day he came to live with us.

With Josh. From the day he came to live with Josh.

Oh who am I fucking kidding...

“I guess we’d better get in there then, if they are going to be here soon.” Josh glances over at the tub that's now starting to overflow with all the bubbles I put in there.

Am I usually a bath person? No.

Am I a bath person when it comes to sharing one with Josh? Abso-fucking-lutely I am.

He slips over the edge of the bed, taking my hand and gently guiding me with him towards the tub, all the while giving me the perfect view of his fucking ass.

That thing is so fucking peachy.

Can I take a bite out of it? Would he let me take a bite out of it...

I’ve never actually sat in a bath like this before, the bowl shape makes me feel like I’m sitting in the middle of a portion of fucking noodle soup or something.

Noodles with hot naked men in.

Maybe I should open a restaurant? I feel like this could be a best seller.

Josh lets himself sink further and further into the water until he disappears completely below the bubbles, only to re-emerge moments later with a smile. Cute.

He looks over the tub at me, I can feel his hands tickling up my legs already. He really just can't ever stop touching me, can he?

I was trying to give him some space to soak the tension in his body but the look in his eyes tells me that's the last thing he really wants right now. So instead I let him guide me by my wrist until I’m comfortably straddling his hips and looking into those ocean blue eyes.

“I don’t know if I said it yesterday but I need you to know... That was the best birthday I’ve ever fucking had... I’m going to have to beat it in a few months with yours though...”

And he calls me the fucking competitive one...

“Looking forward to you trying.” And trying again for every birthday I spend with you after that.

His hands slip down from my hips to grab hold of my cheeks, pulling me forward so that my chest is pressed against his. I might not be able to see into the water with all these bubbles but I know what the fuck he’s got going on down there. We should have time for at least one round of...

The twinkle in his eye tells me that he’s thinking the exact same thing, reaching up to capture my lips once again. There’s definitely something fucking wrong with me, even his morning breath is a fucking turn on at this point.

My tongue slowly teases at his bottom lip until he finally parts them for me, letting me attempt to deepen the kiss right at the moment we hear the front door swing open.

For fucks sake.

If we’d been paying more attention then we probably would have heard her pulling up in the fucking driveway.

“Wow! This is so cool!” Liam’s excited little voice travels up from the lower floor of the house and I peek out to see if I can see them down there from where we are. I didn’t realise how much I truly missed him until I heard his sweet tone.

Josh gives me a sympathetic look before attempting to guide us apart, but we both instantly freeze when a set of hurried footsteps start racing up the metal staircase.

Who the fuck walks into a house and immediately goes running up towards the bedroom where they know two guys are having a romantic fucking night away?!

Wait...

Those footsteps are too heavy to be Liam’s... and they aren’t wearing heels so it’s not Brie...

Oh no.

Josh freezes, forcing the bubbles to cover us both when he realises it’s way too fucking late for us to try and get out now.

“Hey you horny bitches! Did you miss m-”

Charlie stops in his tracks as he steps onto the floor and looks to see me still very much on Josh’s lap inside the tub.

“I’m having a fever dream again aren’t I... Don’t give me the meds this time, this is exactly how I want my life to end...”

Oh he’s going to have a fucking field day with this.

“Charlie! Go back down!” Josh shouts but it only seems to slightly snap him from his trance, his head still very much tilted to the left whilst staring directly at us.

“Mother Mary, Jesus and RuPaul have mercy... This is real!” Charlie dramatically throws his hands over his eyes but instantly parts his fingers so he can look directly at us. “Damn, I can feel the sex pouring out of you both from here. Quick Miles, come here and let me lick you so I can get the aftertaste... Mama needs some sugar.”

How the fuck does Han put up with this? Who would sign up to this man for life?! He must be unbelievable in bed, it’s the only explanation.

Josh rolls his eyes so hard that his head falls back and hits the tub. I don’t know why he expected any other kind of fucking reaction, he's the one who decided to make this man one of his best fucking friends.

Charlie drops his hand and any pretence that he’s doing anything other than trying to find a gap in the bubbles to see everything that’s going on in here.

“Charlie! Want to fuck off so we can get out of here?!” Josh howls at the little ginger with wandering eyes, but the guy doesn’t budge.

“No sugar tits, I think I’ll stay right here, those bubbles are fading fast...” Another set of footsteps make their way up the staircase and I’m not sure which one of the two downstairs I’m more fucking terrified to see.

Gratefully, a head of bouncy brown curls appears and I’m relieved that we won’t be adding anymore childhood fucking trauma to Liam’s life.

I don’t know what it says about Brie that she walks into a scene like this and doesn't so much as fucking blink, instead just smirking at Josh’s ever growing rosy cheeks and walking over to grab Charlie by a handful of his curls and dragging him away from edging ever closer to where we sit.

“Come on you little fucking pervert.” She chuckles, practically dragging Charlie back towards the staircase. “Your like one of those nasty, horny little lamas that tried to mate with Jayce at the zoo.”

I don’t know this story, but you can bet your ass she’ll be telling me later.

“At least let me get one fucking photo first!” Charlie wines as she continues to drag him like a touch deprived little ragdoll down the staircase. “What if I get amnesia or something and lose all my memories! That photo would be the one to bring them all back! You know I’d never truly forget this day! Please, think of my health!”

“Cut it, likes-to-sit-on-Hans-thumbelina, before I make Han put you on a two week fucking ban again!” She shouts back, Brie’s ability to insert herself firmly into other peoples lives is kind of fucking unmatched.

“You wouldn’t! The last time I had fucking withdrawal symptoms, Han had to fuck me in the toilets at the doctors just to make it better! I thought I was dying!” His voice starts to fade away as Brie laughs over him and drags him outside. “I had balls bluer than Josh’s eyes!”

For fucks sake.

Josh just chuckles, kissing me quickly before releasing me so that I can grab us both some towels. I can feel his eyes burning into the back of me as I walk towards the bathroom so I make sure to keep my steps slow.

One day Josh... One day...

I look around the room as Josh starts to dry himself; the bed is a mess, I don’t remember knocking over that fucking lamp and there's so much chocolate all over that hot tub that they are definitely going to fucking bill us but... Damn was it worth it.

“Shit, you said you forgot our swim shorts. How are we going to go in with Liam?”

Oh bless his little heart.

Giggling to myself, I open the top drawer of the dresser and stare down at the swim shorts that have been sitting in there all night.

Definitely worth it.

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