A Part Of It (Avengers)

Chapter 51

Soon enough we were the night before we were all supposed to be leaving for Asgard. I was nervous to say to least but I was so happy that I will have everyone with me, and also Aly, she will get to see where our mom grew up, even if she can't understand much at the moment. 

I made peace with the fact that Peter had weirdly changed and that he wasn't coming with us to Asgard. Officially we didn't break up but I really don't think that we are to get back together and weirdly enough I am fine with that. I don't think I need all the negativity and stress, maybe dating isn't for me after all. I mean we did end in somewhat of good therms with Tony, but now Peter, I am starting to wonder if I am the problem. If I am, in fact, the problem then I won't date anymore it's as simple as that, maybe I am not girlfriend material.

 My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on my door.

"Come in." I said, and in entered Loki, wearing some grey sweatpants and a grey sweater, it was always so amusing seeing him in normal clothes,

"All ready for tomorrow?" he asked sitting down on my bed, Aly was already sleeping in her crib, but we could talk, we wouldn't wake her up, as soon as this kid was out, she was a heavy sleeper,

"I guess so. I am so nervous." I told him honestly and sat next to him, playing with my fuzzy socks,

"Don't be, you're going to be great. I am sure of it Cousin." he tells me, which comforted me but at the same time I could feel that something was troubling him,

"Something is troubling you Loki. What's wrong?" I asked him, and he looked me dead in the eyes,

"I guess, you are getting better and better at figuring people out, even me. My walls are no match for your powers now, I am an open book." he said but his words seemed wrong,

"I will not go wandering in your head if that is what you are implying." I tell him, and instantly his face changed and he shook his head, 

"Not sure you would like what is in there anyway." he said a sad smile lingering on his face,

"Loki, tell me. I can feel it, whatever 'it' is, whenever you are vulnerable with me." I start to tell him,

"Feel what? I am fine Mia." he said getting up, wearing his smug smile back on his face,

"You don't fool me Loki." I tell him as he was about to open the door,

"I am the God of Mischief after all, I can fool anyone." he said, and with that he left, his voice in a monotone, not looking back, just over his shoulder, and that's when I felt it, the weight. The weight he seems to be carrying around, the one that will most likely be the death of him. I will have to try and talk with Odin about all this.

"Can I come in?" I heard a voice that took me out of my thoughts yet again, 

"Yes sure come on in, tonight I am getting a lot of visits." I tell Steve, chuckling a bit,

"How are you feeling?" he asked me, taking the exact sit Loki had taken not too long ago,

"I am fine, excited even, nervous, but excited. Glad that you guys will all be by my side." I tell him, putting aside some of Aly's stuff that I will bring back in Asgard.

"Good that's good." he tells me but there was a very weird silence between us and it was unusual to have this weirdness between us,

"Steve? What's wrong?" I ask him, sitting next to him,

"I have no idea." he says rubbing his hand over his face, and looking at the ground,

"The whole Peter thing, I guess." he said and I let out a dry chuckle,