I looked down at my hands on my lap, covered with blood, his blood!!!
I almost killed him!!!
Tears flowing down my eyes, unstoppable, as I was shivering with agony!!!! He is being treated inside, six stitches that's what the doctor said!I don't know why the fuck, I did that, why all my anger took over me that time, that I almost-
I never wanted him or anyone to be death I still lo-
Care for him!!!!
My life is a mess, I don't know what I want for myself, my heart feels for him, but my mind can t forget the fact that he killed my bestie- married me with force.
I wish it is just a dream, but it's not, the pain in my heart, my head, saying that all this is true, part of my life!!!
Which I wanted perfect!!!
I never wanted any pain!!!
Any agony!!!
I never wanted to fall in love!!!
That's the main reason- I left him!!!!
I started to fall for him!!! I knew the future of every love story, betrayal, pain, tears!!!!
I didn't wanted that-
I can't trust him- which I was by the passing time.
I was falling for him, way too much that his absence scares me, I just wanted to get rid of these feelings which I couldn't handle as a teenager!!!
So I left him, when papa asked to marry Kunal, in 3rd year I said yes, coz I wanted to get rid of these feelings-
My brother- he died because of this love!!!!
I hate love!!!
More than anything!!!
Am scared to fall in love
^_________^
I was in 8th class
I still remember that day...my eyes were fixed on the TV, as i was watching Crime shows on weekend with my younger brother when, Rohan Bhai walked in 'bhai aap aa gaye( brother you are home)' that's what I asked, but he ignored me, and directly rushed upstairs, to his room and banged the door behind him, so loud that it startled me, i sat back on the couch thinking he must be tired and continued with watching TV.
Late night papa came, about at eight thirty, i rushed towards him and hugged him happily, he chuckled and hugged me back, caressing my hairs " i bought you chocolates gudiya (doll)"he smiled at me handing me over the chocolates and i grinned.
Family is perfect-
Until you become an adult!!!!
Mumma asked me to go and call bhai for dinner,so i rushed upstairs and knocked his room door, NO ANSWERS
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