SHATTERED

twenty-three

alex

FLASHBACK
ALEX: 16 YEARS OLD

i wiped at my eyes as i heard a small, specific knock on my window. i took a few deep breaths as i tried my best to dry my cheeks. i got up from my bed, and i walked over to my window to open it.

"hi, baby," devon greeted before she climbed through the window. she shut it, then she turned to face me. her brows knitted together as she frowned. she lifted her hands to cup my cheeks. "hey, what's wrong? why have you been crying?"

i shook my head as i stepped forward to hug her and bury my face into her neck. she's taller than me by a few inches.

she cupped the back of my head, and she brought us over to sit on the edge of my bed. "c'mon, talk to me, love. what happened?"

my bottom lip quivered, and the tears started to flow again. devon tried her best to calm me down as she rubbed my back.

"i failed my test today. when i told my parents, they got mad and s-said that i wasn't trying," i sniffled as i pulled back to look at her. "i tried so hard, dev. i swear i did."

she cupped my cheeks again, and she swiped my tears away. "fuck them. i'm proud of you, okay? you did your best," she assured.

"you are?" i sniffled again.

"yes, of course, love. i'm so proud of you," she gave a smile.

i let out a shaky breath as my shoulders slumped. "you're too sweet to me," i mumbled. "and i just— i love you, a lot."

"because you deserve it," she pressed a kiss to my forehead. "i love you too."

she wiped under my eyes again, and she smiled. "you're so pretty."

i felt my face flush brightly. i tried to lift my hands to cover my face, but she was quick to grab them and hold them instead. "dev," i whined.

"you're cute when you blush; don't hide," she said in a teasing tone.

i jutted my bottom lip out at her, even as my cheeks flushed brighter. "adorable," she mumbled as she leaned forward to press her lips to mine. i happily reciprocated the kiss.

i was a bit shocked at how quick she was to deepen the kiss, but i didn't protest. she gently pushed me back so that i was laying across my bed. she was hovering over me.

"are your parents asleep?" she asked as she curled my hair behind my ear.

"yeah," i answered softly as i looked up at her.

god, she's so pretty.

i can't believe she's with me, of all people.

she smiled, and she leaned down to press her lips back to mine. i hooked my arms around her neck as we kissed, while she placed her own hands on my waist.

when she started to tug on my shirt, i hesitated. "wait... i'm nervous," i admittedly quietly. "you know i've never..." i trailed off.

she cupped my cheek. "it's okay. i'll be gentle," she assured. "i wanna show you how much i appreciate you."

i stared up at her in awe. "o-okay," i murmured.

"there's nothing to be nervous about, baby," she rubbed my cheekbone. "and hey, don't you want me to be your first?" she questioned a bit teasingly with a smile.

my eyes widened a bit, and i nodded. she giggled, and she pecked my lips. "good. now, i promise i'll take care of you, love. just relax," she whispered reassuringly.

•

i'm not sure how much later it is when devon has pulled her clothes back on (except, this time, she's wearing my shirt, because i practically begged to wear her's). i frowned as she tried to leave, and i tugged on her hand.

"can't you stay the night? please?" i frowned.

"you know i shouldn't, alex," she sighed as she sat back on the bed and rubbed my cheekbone.

"i have to get to class in a few hours anyways," i told her. "please, just stay until then?"

she bit her lip. "you're lucky you're cute," she sighed. "and that my professor canceled the lecture for today."

i smiled tiredly as she got back into the bed with me. i almost immediately snuggled up close to her, which caused a soft chuckle to leave her lips.

"how are you feeling?" she asked after she pressed her lips to my temple.

"tired," i pouted.

she ran her hand through my hair. "mm, and how did it feel?" she asked; i could tell by the tone of her voice that she was smirking.

i felt my face flush brightly. "you already know i liked it," i huffed. "don't be so cocky!"

she chuckled. her hand that wasn't running through my hair, gripped my waist. "so, you'd be down to have more, huh?"

my face flushed even brighter as i nodded against her chest. she laughed, and she kissed the top of my head. "alright, you should get some rest. you've still got school."

i sighed, but i cuddled closer to her. within no time at all, i drifted off to sleep.

•

the next morning, i woke up to see that devon was already gone. i get why she was; my parents don't know about her, so it definitely wouldn't go great if they saw her. still, it would've been nice to wake up next to her after last night.

last night was so— man, i can't even put it into words.

just thinking about it made my face turn hot. i held my face in my hands as i tried to clear my thoughts.

i got up, and i walked towards the bathroom. i took devon's shirt off, and i folded it neatly and put it away for now. i then took the rest of my clothes off so that i could shower and then get to class.

•

a/n ayooo

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