Save your tears • Jasper Hale

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It's been a few weeks since I've last seen Lukka. We have been texting and everything is going good.

However Alec has been acting very weird around me. I try hugging him or even holding his hand and he gets... uncomfortable?

He would usually hug me back or hold my hand but instead he gives me a side hug or moves his hand away.

I've tried talking to him about it and he just says I'm reading too much into it. I know it's not because of Lukka. I've been keeping that to myself and no one but Karmen knows.

I even asked Izzy what's going on, and she said he's been weird with her too, he even missed their sibling day they have and it really hurt her.

I shake my head and continue walking with Sam and Karmen. Sam wanted us to come with him to get Jake since we need him for the spell we are doing.

We figured it would be easier for us to communicate if we were all linked, hence why we need the whole pack.

It starts raining and I groan in annoyance, "I just washed my hair!" Karmen screeches out.

"Does this mean you're going to smell like wet dog? I'll buy you shamp- please shut up." Sam groans out. I snicker and contiue walking with the two.

"Umm, is that Bella swan?" Karmen asks. I squint trying to see through the downpour.

"It is, looks like he ignored your orders alpha." Sam sighs out. We move a bit closer and we hear yelling,

"What happened to you? Did Sam get to you? Is that's what's happening?"Bella shouts.

Jacob scoffs, "Sam? No Sam's trying to help me. Don't blame him! If you want someone to blame, blame those filthy bloodsuckers who you love."

I sigh out at his words.

"You ok Will?" Karmen asks.

"Yeah."

"I-I-i don't know what you're talking abou-no! You know exactly what I'm talking about! You've been lying to everyone.... Charlie..."

I cringe a bit, "I know he's trying to be stern but him trailing off after Charlie was kind of funny." Sam gives me a look.

"But you can't lie to me, not anymore Bella." Suddenly Paul, Jared, and Embry appear shouting Jacob's name. "You idiots shut up! We are trying to hear the drama between those two!" Karmen says swatting at Paul.

He gives her a cheeky smile making her roll her eyes.

"Look Bella... we can't be friends anymore."

"Jake I know I've been...hurting you! It's-its killing me! It kills me! I just need...maybe like give me some time or something?" Bella becomes upset and I can tell.

First her boyfriend leaves her, and now her bestfriend? I honestly don't know what I would do if Alec left me.

"No Bella, it's not you!"

"It's not you it's me right?" Bella scoffs out.

"Really?"

"It's true! It is me! I'm not-good... I use to be, a good kid.. not anymore. This doesn't even matter alright! This is over!"

"You can't break up with me! I mean, you're my bestfriend! You promised me!" Her voice wavers signaling she's going to start crying.

I feel bad for her.

"I know... I promised I wouldn't hurt you Bella, and this is me keeping that promise... go home, and don't come back or you're gonna get hurt."

He turns away and jogs towards us, leaving her crying in the rain.

"Hey Jake I'm-leave it Sam. Let's go."

He takes off into the woods leavening the rest of us behind.

•

"Want to talk Jake?" I ask sitting next to him.

Karmen and I finished the spell so everyone left. I decided to stay and sit with Jake.

"Did I...did I do the right thing? Leaving her like that? God I'm not better than him!"

"Jake, you did what Sam told you to do. You could have ended it way harsher.... You could have left her how Jasper did me... but you didn't. You gave her an explanation, a shitty one, but you have one..."

"I just, I didn't want this Willow! I don't understand why Sam has to do this!"

"When it comes to supernatural, none of us wanted this... but that's how it is...do you think Sam wanted this? Do you think he wanted to hurt Emily?"

He stares at me in confusion, "he, he hurt Emily?"

"And he regrets it deeply... that's why he told you to leave Bella alone. Not because you didn't imprint or he wants you to be miserable, because he's seen too many people get hurt, and has experienced hurt. He doesn't want that for any of us."

"Do... do you think Bella will forgive me?"

"Of course she will, full offense but she's dumb. She will forgive you but won't pick you." I tap his shoulder and stand up. "Now come on, stop sulking and let's go eat."

•

I sigh as I knock on the white door. I hear some stumbling before the door opens, "Ja-oh."

"Sorry not sorry, can I come in?" She gives me a look making me roll my eyes. "Fair en-what do you want Willow?"

"Well Bella, I wanted to see how you were doing." She gives me a look and I groan out, "ok look I obviously don't like you and you don't like me but, I'm trying to be nice to you because we both went through fucked up things."

"You tried to kill me..."

"And I don't regret it. I'm not going to say sorry for that. You deserved it."

"What do you want Willow." I clench my fists in annoyance.

"I'm attempting to be nice and your making it hard. I wanted to see how you were doing because we went through semi similar things and you're sad as fuck and I'm fine and- you're fine?"

She scoffs, "you're not fine! Your masking your hurt and sadness by being an angry bitch! You tried to kill Lauren for gods sake! I may be depressed and sometimes spazz out on Charlie but at least I'm allowing myself to feel something!"

Her words cut deep but I manage to ignore them, "why don't you like me? From day one you haven't even though I never did anything to you."

"You... you kissed Edward and I saw."

"Kissed!? When the he-oh my god you mean when he forcefully kissed me in the hallway because he was threatening me!"

She stares at me with wide eyes. "No! He told me you kisses him! Alice even backed him up!"

I scoff, "oh please, Alice is a bitch and Edward is creepy! Alice doesn't like me because Jasper is-was my mate. She wanted him and now she has him. Edward saw me as a threat and I still am."

She stares at me, "what else do you want to know Bella?" She says nothing.

"Well I'm done here. Bye Isabella, this was the first and last time I'm being nice to you."

I turn around and walk to my car. I climb in and try to calm myself down.