Save your tears • Jasper Hale

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We are at the pack house once again but this time not for Sam's orders. Jake demanded that we meet due to new information he has.

"Why is Bella here?" I ask crossing my arms in annoyance.

"Because I know why Victoria is here." She takes an exaggerated deep breath, and stands up from the stairs.

"It's because of me..."

"No shit dumbass." Bella looks at me in shock as I stand up. "Well why would they be after Bella?" It's clear Sam is confused.

"Because of James... I am the reason he's dead." She seems proud that she's the reason everyone is in this mess.

"Well really I'm the reason. Regardless if he went after Bella first, he was dying under my hands." I state as I grab a glass of water.

The pack looks at eachother in confusion.

"So why are they after Bella then and not you?"

I shrug, "don't really know. She may think it's Bella's fault I killed him, so she's going after her. I don't know why, I don't like her so it wouldn't hurt me if she's dead." Jake glares at me and I smile as I sit back down.

"Why did the guy go after you anyway?" Bella thinks for a few seconds. "I guess my blood smelled good to him-you smell horrible so that's a lie-anyway." Bella shoots a glare in my direction and I return it.

I don't know why I'm getting so much backlash. All I'm doing is stating facts.

"He said I smelled good and I guess he likes a chase. Edward being protective set him off."

Sam nods at the information.

"Ok, we'll the information was helpful." I go to make a comment but Emily swats at me.

"Ok well now what? She gave us info we personally already knew." Karmen leans into Paul as she speaks.

"We need to have a protection order for Bella." On cue, my crew stands up. "You all have fun with that. We will not be involved." I state grabbing my bag.

"What? Why won't you help?" Bella asks in shock. "Simple I don't like you." I answer with a shrug.

"But you have to he-I don't have to do shit I don't want to." I cut her off with a glare.

"Willow-no Sam."

"We need your help. All of you. It's only a little of us."

Izzy rolls her eyes, "it's one vampire. We will help take her down, but not protecting Bella."

"Best you're going to get Sammy." He sighs and nods. "Alright, I have better things to do so I'm leaving." I walk out of the house and begin walking home. Izzy catches up to me and links our arms.

"Sooo you and Lukka? How is that?"

"I'm going over there tonight. We are going to watch some movies." She smiles at me.

"So you like him?" Karmen asks coming up on the side of me. "I do..." Karmen gives me a look.
"You don't sound sure about that answer. You know just because he's a mate doesn't mean you have to be with him. It can be a friendship."

"I know i know...I can't let the past sway the present though.he can just be intense sometimes..."They give me questioning looks.

"He keeps saying I'm leading him on, and is very adamant on being with me. I want to be with him though."

"Maybe he just really likes you?" Izzy's tone is questionable. "I don't know..."

"Just be careful willow."

We make it back to the house and I begin to get ready.

Just as I slide my shirt on, someone knocks on my door. I open it and scoff seeing Luke. I go to close the door but he weakly stops it, "Willow please. Hear me out." He weakly walks into my room, breathing hard.

"I'm sorry... for everything I really am."

He stares at me with hopeful eyes.

I shoulder bump him out the way, smiling when he winces in pain. I go downstairs and grab my purse and keys.

"I'm leaving, by-and where are you going?" Amethyst asks in confusion. "On a date with my mate. Can I leave now? Yes? Ok bye!" I rush out the house and get in my car, driving to Lukka's.

I soon arrive and walk up the stairs. I make it to the door I can't help but to feel...off?

It's that same feeling I got with Jasper and it makes me want to throw up.

Hesitantly, I knock on the door. Lukka opens it and he has on jeans and no shirt. "Hey sorry I was fixing something." I nod and step into the apartment.

I see he has some food on the table, and the couch is pulled out into a bed. The set up reminds me of that night and my hands begin to get clammy. "You ok? You look sick."

"Hm? Yeah I'm fine." He gives me a look but nods. "Make yourself comfortable, I'm going to change real quick." I watch as he leaves the livingroom.

I slowly sit down on the pull out and try to calm myself down.

"He's not like him, he won't do that to you. Nothing will happen, you're strong." I repeat the mantra in my head until he comes back. "Alright I found a few horror movies for us and I got some snacks too. You ready?" I give my best smile and nod.

He plops down and turns on one of the movies.

About halfway in, I notice he's looking at me and my heart lurches. "Why are you looking at me like that?" He pauses the movie making me worry.

"I have a question for you." I nod and do my best to keep eye contact with him. It hard considering Im watching everything around me incase something happens.

"I want you to be my girlfriend."

"That wasn't a question." I mumble out. He smiles and holds my hand. "Ok well, will you be my girlfriend?"

I stare at him, trying to see if he has some other motive.

"Willow?" I come back to consciousness and nod, "Yeah...yeah ok." He smiles and pulls me into a kiss. His hands up rub at my thighs and I quickly pull back, "I um... I don't want to do anything yet." He nods and gives me a quick peck. "That's fine, don't worry about it."

I nod and turn back to the tv. He resumes the movie and pulls me close to him.