Its A Kind Of Magic (Previously 'Deciding')

Chapter 39: Not To Toot My Own Horn

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You know when you have one of those days, the ones that make you feel small and inferior? Well, today was one of those days. But not only that, I felt sad. It's been a week since I met Lizzie and last saw Jack.

I just feel... weak.

I decided I needed to do something. Something other than sitting around crying. Something to take my mind off of things.

I eventually decided to go for a run. So I pulled on some cropped exercise leggings and a sports bra. I grabbed my black and white Nike Roshe and put on my armband to put my phone in.

I left the house, after contemplating what route to run. Deciding on the route that would lead me through the park and along the high street and then down some residential area, I set off.

I needed something to take my mind off of everything. And what better than exercise, because exercise gives you endorphins and they make you happy. Sounds good right?

I turned on my 'Exercise Playlist' and 'Irresistible by Fall Out Boy' came on. I jogged down my road and to the park where I followed the path and then cut across the grassy field. As my feet pounded on the grass, my body shuddered at the contact. I kept going, the music motivating me as it flooded through my headphones.

I was almost done with my run when all of a sudden the song which was edgy and full of bass, changed to something slower and softer. What?

Oh that's right, I'm usually done by now. It's probably my warm down.

It was only when I realised the song that was playing was 'Falling In Love by McFLY', that I got even sadder than I was previously.

'Everyday feels like a Monday,
There is, no escaping from the heartache,
Now I, gotta put it back together,
'Coz it's, always better late then never.
Wishin' I could be in California,
I wanna tell ya when I call ya,
I could've fallen in love,
I wish I'd fallen in love'

It was tugging on my heart strings. I love the song, but never had I felt such a connection to it.

'Out of our minds and out of time
Wishin' I could be with you,
And to share the view,
We could've fallen in love,
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Waking up to people talking
And it's, getting later every morning
Now I, realise it's nearly midday
And I've, wasted half my life, to throw it away,
Saying
Everyday should be a new day,
To make you smile and find a new way,
Of falling in love,
Yeah falling in love'

But had I fallen in love? I mean I liked Tom. Like really, really liked him but I don't think I loved him.

'Out of our minds, and out of time,
Wishin' I could be with you,
To share the view, oh
We could've fallen in love
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
We could've fallen in love
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Out of our minds, and out of time,
Wishin' I could be with you,
To share the view, oh
We could've fallen in love
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh
We could've fallen in love
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

But did I love someone? As much as I hate the person right now, I can't help but what they said.

'Because I fucking love you Jess!'