I Promised Myself (Ross Lynch Fan Fiction)

Chapter Sixteen

*Edie's POV*

I arrived early at school so I decided to go straight to class. I grabbed a guitar and sat down in the middle of the empty classroom. I began to play one of my favourite songs. 

I walked through the door with you
The air was cold but something 'bout it felt like home somehow and I
Left my scarf there at your sister's house
And you still got it in your drawer even now

Oh, your sweet disposition
And my wide-eyed gaze
We're singing in a car getting lost Upstate
The autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days
And I know it's long gone, and that magic's not here no more
And it might be okay, but I'm not fine at all

Cause here we are again on that little town street
You almost ran the red cause you were looking over at me
Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well

Photo album on the counter
Your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed
And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the t-ball team
You tell me about your past thinking your future was me

And I know it's long gone, and there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to

Cause here we are again in the middle of the night
We're dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well
Yeah

And maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
'til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well

Hey you called me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumbled up piece of paper lying here
Cause I remember it all all all too well

Time won't fly it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again
But I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it, cause you remember it all too well Yeah

Cause there we are again when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well...

I wiped away the tears that escaped from my eyes. I placed the guitar down on the ground and buried my head in my hands.

Why did everything have to turn out like this?

What did I ever do wrong to make Ross go for another girl? Was I not good enough?

As for Danny I have no idea what's going on with him. I don't even know if we're together anymore. I know deep down that Danny doesn't care about me but I can't seem to let go of the fact that I have someone in my life that I can call mine. Even though I don't love him. There's no spark, no fireworks. Nothing like there is with Ross.

At this point I couldn't stop myself from crying. I took deep breaths but nothing helped. I think I'd finally built up enough emotion and now I just couldn't hold in anymore. Everything just had to come out.


*Ross' POV*

I walked through the empty school hallways. I couldn't sleep so decided to just get out the house before anyone else woke up. I'd been driving around for I don't know how long and in the end I pulled into school and made my way to music class to work on a new R5 song.

I got to the class room and heard a voice that I don't think I could ever forget.

I watched as Edie finished playing her song. She was staring out the window and tears rolled down her cheeks. She bent her head down and began to cry hysterically. All I wanted to do was go in and hold her. To tell her everything would be okay. Just to have her back in my arms would mean everything. To kiss her, to touch her, to have her. It's all I want. To tell her I love her. That I'd never stopped loving her. But somehow I just couldn't move. I couldn't walk into that room and do all those things because I knew if I did, I'd make everything 1000x worse then it already is.

It's my job to fix this mess. Since I was the one who made it.

I walked down the hallway towards Ashley's locker. This was it. I'm breaking up with Ashley and getting my girl back.

Just as I was about to approach Ashley and announcement was called out.

"To all students. Due to the lack of staff caused by heavy traffic. All classes have been cancelled."

I heard cheers echo around the building and a huge crowed started pushing past me to get out the door. I lost sight of Ashley and soon I was left alone in the hallways again.


*Edie's POV*

After the announcement went off I grabbed my things and headed straight for my car. I checked my phone and I saw I had a text from Rydel.

She wanted to me to come round.

I sat and thought about it for a while. I missed Rydel. I haven't spent quality time with her in ages. I quickly text her back and made my way to the Lynch's.

Rydel answered the door and hugged me tightly. "How are you?" She beamed as we walked out to the back yard.

"I'm alright..." I shrugged.

"Right you run upstairs and grab a bikini from my room and then meet me by the pool. We need a serious talk! Don't worry no one's home so it's just me and you!"

Rydel begins pushing me towards the stairs, I laughed and ran up to her room. I picked out a blue bikini and put it on. I left my clothes on her bed and grabbed a towel. I made my way downstairs and out back. Rydel was sat by the pool with her legs in the water. I sat down beside her and did the same.

"So what's this serious chat about?" I asked leaning back on the palms.

"What's going on with you and Ross?"

I froze. "Nothing!"

"Don't lie to me Edie. Your really bad at it" She smirked.

I sighed. "I don't know Del. Everything's so complicated. I don't know what to do anymore"

"What about Danny?"

"Danny who?" I said sarcastically. Rydel raised her eyebrow. "I haven't heard from him since the party. He didn't even stuck up for me. Riker was the one who found me in the middle of the night walking home along. That should of been his job"

"So you haven't heard from him a all?" She asked.

I kicked my feet in the water and watched the water rippled and Rydel stared at me. "Nope" I said quietly. "I don't even know if we're together anymore..."

"You don't need him Edie. You deserve better" Rydel stated. I just shook my head and carried on looking into the water.

"When is better going to come along then? Because so far it's just been bad luck with guys"

"You'll find someone soon! And he'll be perfect for you! Just wait and see"

"Rydel you don't get it though. That someone that I want...I can't have."

We sat in silence.

"Ross..." Rydel said quietly.

I just nodded. There was no point hiding it anymore. Rydel would found out sooner or later and I needed to stop kidding myself.

I'm still head over heels in love with Ross Lynch.