The redneck has feelings? (daryl dixon love story)

Chapter 50

Ricks pov

i was hoping she wouldn't ask that just yet. I knew it was coming, but this is going to kill her and I can't lose her again when I just got her back. She looked around the room worried. Well this is as good a time as ever.

"guys can ya give me and her a minute?" I asked the group.

They nodded and left the cell. She looked at me with pure horror in her eyes. I took her hand and sat down next to her on her cot.

Kayla's pov

Why did everyone look so sad or upset when i asked about Daryl? wait. no. Please no. He can't be dead! My heart was beating and I started sweating when rick dismissed everyone from the room. He walked and sat down next to me and grabbed my hand. I felt tears in my eyes,

"he dead?" My voice cracked.

"no he's not." He sighed.

thank god. I breathed a sigh of relief," we'll where is he? I want to see him."

"kayla. He left. We wouldn't let Merle in the group so he went off with his brother. I'm sorry" he said.

"he left?" My voice cracked.

he looked at me sadly and nodded. I quickly got up and pushed him away.

"kayla you need to lay back down" he said.

I stormed away, I heard him behind me yelling my name, but I ignored him. I was fuming. I felt betrayed, I felt alone. I was angry and broken hearted at the same time. He left. He had a decision and he left! Didn't even wait till I woke up to say bye! I ignored the stares I was getting from everyone as I stormed out into the court yard. I began running to the fence. I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. I felt empty, like a huge piece of me was missing, taken away. My legs gave out and I came crushing to the ground. I cried harder and just layed there. He was gone. I was gone. Growling interrupted my break down. I looked up and saw a bunch of walkers clawing at the gate. I was angry. Can't they just leave me alone for 2 minutes! I grabbed my knife out of my boot and stormed to the gate and started killing them off. I cried and screamed while doing this. Not gonna lie it was helping a little bit. Hmm. Who knew killing walkers could be a stress reliever? I continued this till the last one was dead. I began panting and held my knife up to my eyes looking at it and back down to my wrists. No I can't. Not again. I jumped when I heard from behind me,

"Kayla?"

i turned and saw Carl. I quickly put my knife back in my boot and wiped my tears, "hey Carl."

he just stood there starring at me.

"What?" I asked annoyed.

"Are you ok?" He asked.

i sighed, defeated,"no Carl I'm not."

"you want to talk about it?" He asked.

i slid down the fence to sit in the grass and he came and sat down next to me.

"I just don't understand Carl." I sighed. "I was stupid to let myself fall so hard for someone who never loved me.mi don't understand why every man I love leaves me."

"I'll never leave you." He said serious.

i looked over to Carl as he said that. He wasn't that little boy I met in the beginning. He was a man now. Sure he was only 15, but he was about as much as a man as his father is. I smiled and hugged him.

" He's stupid for leaving you but He loved you though. I know he did. He was crushed when we all thought you were dead. He was the only one there for me." He sighed.

I arched an eyebrow. He sighed," when I thought you were dead. After mom died. I didn't think I wanted to continue. I thought to end it all. Then I thought of Judith. Dad was going crazy and daryl went back to his old self only more angry and distant."

i was shocked," Carl don't ever think that again. I'm not going to be around forever. Just because someone leaves you, does not mean for you to hurt or kill yourself."

"Just like you huh?" He asked.

my face turned white. He saw me about to take the knife to my wrists. I looked down disappointed in myself.

"here" he said placing something in my hand.

I looked to see my locket. I opened it and looked at the pictures causing me to smile.

"Just please remember. They never left you. They are still here, protecting us. Just like my mom." He whispered.

i looked over to Carl and kissed him on the forehead,"thank you Carl"

he smiled and blushed,"I love you kayla."

"love ya too bud." I said ruffling his hair.

then gunshots rung out. We quickly jumped up and I pushed Carl behind me. We were being attacked.