Desire ♡ Jungkook/Reader FF ♡ Completed ♡

Friends

Y/N's POV

I didn't want to see him, I certainly didn't want to talk with him but he was my boss and if he called me to his office I couldn't exactly refuse.

I hadn't spoken to him since that night, he tried to call and sent messages but I never replied....I couldn't reply. I was still hurting after his rejection....it seemed so easy for him to let me go.

I couldn't really blame him entirely, I knew exactly what I was getting myself involved with when we first made the arrangement.

I knew Jungkook wasn't looking for a relationship, that what we had was purely physical but I went ahead and did the stupid thing of actually starting to fall for the guy.

I felt guilty for what I said to him that night, he opened himself up to me and spoke about his issues at home yet all I did was scream at him to leave.....it just hurt so bad to be rejected by him and in that moment of vulnerability I snapped.

Yet he was also at fault, he knew how I felt for him and what I wanted and yet he slept with me....gave me false hope. Yet did he really do that? I was already aware he wasn't ready for a relationship and yet still slept with him....ugh I guess we're both at fault in this.

I softly knocked on the door to his office

"Come in." His deep voice momentarily made my heart skip a few beats....calm down Y/N.

I pushed open the door, keeping my head down.

"Please take a seat, we need to talk."

I finally lifted my head, eyes meeting his own. He looked gorgeous today and I hated him for it.

"What do we need to talk about?" I replied, my tone abrasive.

"Y/N....please stop. I'm truly sorry for what happened that night but I think you've hated me for long enough. I just want to explain my situation to you, say sorry and hope we can be friends because regardless of everything I want you in my life."

I noticed the sadness his words carried, I knew deep down Jungkook wasn't a bad guy and that we both were to blame with what happened but the sting of rejection was still clear in my mind.

I was hurting and to be so close to Jungkook wasn't helping.

"I'm sorry about what happened, you told me about the situation at home and I just yelled at you to leave....I'm also sorry for ignoring your messages." I crossed one leg over the other, I immediately noticed Jungkook's eyes linger on my thigh.

Jungkook's POV

I was going through so many different emotions, when she entered the office all I wanted to do was hug her and say sorry until she would forgive me.

When she sat down opposite me and finally met my gaze all I wanted to do after noticing the sadness in her eyes was kiss her and tell her she's the most incredible woman I've ever met.

Then when she crossed her legs, exposing that part of her thigh that drove me crazy all I wanted to do was make love to her and make her feel like the most loved and adored woman on the planet.

I knew there was definitely something between us, I obviously had started to develop feelings for her but I couldn't explore them yet.....my father and the company needed to come first.

"It's okay Y/N, I wasn't exactly innocent. I knew how you felt about me and yet still slept with you, I should've controlled myself. I'm so sorry, you're an amazing woman and deserve so much better. It's not that I don't want you, believe me I do....so badly you wouldn't even believe but....I just can't be part of a relationship. I don't have the time to give you, I don't even know what I want for myself or my future and so....it wouldn't be fair to you if I promised you something I couldn't give."

Y/N's POV

I swallowed the lump in my throat, I didn't want to cry around him yet again.

I needed to be strong.

I knew he was only doing what he thought was best, at least he was honest with me.

I gave a nod, and forced a small smile.

"I understand, I'm sorry for reacting so badly that night. I guess, I guess when I really think about it....I'm still not over what happened with Yoongi. I need more time alone to get myself together, so you rejecting me was a good thing."

I lied.

Jungkook's POV

Y/N was driving me crazy, I hated that word.....rejection. I also hated how much she was hurting because of it....because of me.

I couldn't stop staring at her as she spoke, Y/N was bare faced with her hair swept up loosely....how can someone be so beautiful? It only made this more difficult, yet I couldn't allow myself to lose control again.

"I asked you to come here because I've got something to discuss with you, obviously I wanted to clear the air with you and make sure we're good first."

I felt my heart race, I was scared of her reaction.

Y/N's POV

I sighed, I couldn't hate him forever....he didn't deserve that.

"We're good Jungkook, so what is it that you need to tell me?"

He suddenly looked nervous, biting his bottom lip.

"I'm moving to Tokyo for a few months to help lead the new team there."

That's when my heart broke all over again.