Desire ♡ Jungkook/Reader FF ♡ Completed ♡

Day Off

Y/N's POV

"Y/N why are you home?" I stayed in bed, not wanting to budge even an inch when my brother appeared in the doorway without even bothering to knock.

"I could've been naked Joon, don't you knock?" I grumbled.

"Christ Y/N it's like a dungeon in here, let some light in." I heard his feet pad along the carpet and suddenly light was cast throughout the small room.

"JOON! WHAT THE HELL!" I squeezed my eyes shut and threw the covers over my face. I really wasn't in the mood for conversation, it was my day off and I planned on laying in bed feeling sorry for myself.

"Y/N....talk to me." I felt the mattress dip as he sat down.

"There's nothing to talk about." I stayed hidden under the covers.

"Why are you here?"

"This is my apartment Joon, why wouldn't I be here?"

There was silence shortly followed by an exasperated sigh before he continued.

"You rarely stay here, you're always with Jin at his place but since Jungkook came back you've been coming here often. Y/N please talk to me, I'm your brother and want to help. I hate to see you upset, this isn't like you."

"Jungkook went out on a date last night." I suddenly blurted out, my heart constricted and that all too familiar lump formed in my throat.

"Y/N it shouldn't matter if he did or not, you're with Jin."

I knew he was right and immediately felt guilty for feeling and acting this way but I couldn't help it, I couldn't control my emotions when it came to Jungkook.

"I was with Jin in the kitchen making dinner and someone knocked at the door so of course I went to answer it as Jin was busy cooking."

"Let me guess, it was Jungkook's date?"

I gave a nod even though he couldn't see me under the blanket. "I've never seen someone so beautiful, she was tall and had the most gorgeous red hair. I mean her legs were so long and you should've seen her skin...it was flawless and it made me feel so....so average. I don't know why it hurt but it did, Jungkook didn't even seem to notice me when he came down the stairs." I felt my throat burn, tears threatening to fall but forced myself to continue. "He just thanked me for opening the door and said to go back and help Jin, I heard him kiss her when I was walking away but I couldn't bring myself to look at them. I couldn't sleep that night, kept tossing and turning and when Jungkook finally came back he wasn't alone." I covered my face with my hands, I didn't want to cry and kept telling myself to be strong but the memory of what happened was just too much. "He came back with her and I heard them having sex, his room is across the hall from Jin's and it killed me Joonie and I know this is totally unfair on Jin but I can't help how I feel." The tears came and I hated myself for being so weak.

I felt the blanket move down and suddenly my hands were getting pried away from my face.

"Y/N....little pabo." He lowered his face to look at me, gently wiping away my tears with his thumbs. "I know it hurts to see him back, I know there's a part of you that still has some feelings for him. I'm just worried that this will put a strain on your relationship with Jin, you two have been together for almost a year Y/N and you can't just walk away from that."

I nodded, smiling when my brother placed his forehead against my own.

"I know and I feel awful for putting Jin through this, he's been so good to me. I've been pushing him away, finding excuses to not spend time with him. I haven't even been intimate with him since Jungkook came back and even though he keeps saying he's fine and understands....I know deep down he's hurt by my rejection."

"You know how rejection feels and yet you're doing the same to Jin. Jungkook has moved on and you need to do the same, give Jin a chance to make you happy."

I knew he was right but why did this hurt so much?

I was so confused.

I didn't want to go back to the house because Jungkook would be there but I needed to make things right with Jin, he'd been so understanding and patient with me and he deserved better.

"Joon....I'll go and see Jin tomorrow but for tonight can we please just do something to take my mind off everything."

I felt his arms move around my back, gently stroking down.

"Anything for my little pabo, what do you have in mind?"

"Bowling?" I looked up at him with a smile.

"That's what I like to see..." he ran his finger down my nose and smiled. ".....you smiling makes everything better and of course we can go bowling."

"I always feel so much better after talking with you, you're amazing big pabo.....annoying at times but amazing nonetheless."

"I was just about to say the same thing." His tone was one of a playful nature as he winked and placed a kiss on my forehead.

"Now please shower and brush your teeth because you smell terrible, like I almost gagged a couple of times sitting this close to you."

"Yah!" I hit his chest as he scrunched his nose up to display just how disgusted he was with my apparent stench.

"I'll make you some food and once you're ready we can go bowling." He placed one final kiss on my forehead before leaving.

I wiped away the rest of my tears and told myself to stop acting like this, no more getting upset and no more Jungkook. I would spend the night with my brother having fun and then tomorrow would make things right with Jin, it was the least I could do.

What could possibly go wrong with that plan......