At the Strand of Nightmares

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In reference to the previous post: I'm fine, just letting out the same feelings I've felt for a long time.

Current feeling: Good, happy I'm done with my grad party and recital, agitated I have to write ALL OF THESE THANK YOU NOTES.

We'll get back to the grad party in a moment...

However, today was quite nice. Had an organ lesson, and that was dramatic, as always. Also, went and got my eyebrows done... wrote some thank you notes.

NOW BACK TO THE PARTY.

OR RATHER ONE LITTLE THING.

So, remember the "nice" boy I told y'all about a few months ago? Well, he came to the party, and I have reason to believe he actually is a nice guy and might have somewhat of an affection towards me... of some kind.

The crazy part is... I think I... like it? Like I actually like the idea of wanting him?

He's six or seven years older then me though, so that makes this whole thing... complicated...

For obvious reasons.

Now, here's the deal: I'm actually quite okay with that sort of an age gap.

Slap me upside the head but I find it attractive... appealing.... dare I say a turn on.

But then again, for the next couple of months it's also kind of illegal.

FOR NOW

This guy is such a sweetheart to me... he wrote me a longass note on the grad card he gave me.

HOW DARE HE BE SO FUCKING THOUGHTFUL.

The worst part is now my feelings are being pulled in two directions and I don't know what to do because I don't have a single feeling I can act on. One day I'll just look at either one and be like, "Hey I really like you.... get coffee with me, plz?" And see what happens.

I NEED AFFECTION.

You know what, fuck this shit.... imma just gonna run away with the Prince of Denmark.
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So, I got tagged by JxhnDeacxn for this tagaroo.

1. Tag people
Onehitwonder18 I haven't seen you do this one yet

2. Favorite song- I DON'T HAVE ONE, I TOUGHT WE WENT OVER THIS, INVISIBLE FORCE OF TAGS.

Okay, I'll just say Turbo Lover by Judas Priest today because why not.

3. Favorite animal- Cat. I love kitties 🐱

4. Nationality- American girl of Irish and Dutch decent who thinks she's Russian

5. Zodiac sign- Libra

6. Do you like anime- No offense to any anime fans out there, but OH FUCK NO.

7. Height- 5'9... I'm a fucking giant for a girl

8. Do you like sports- Nope

9. Nine- What do you do every day- Masturbate.

JUST KIDDING

Okay, but please tell me I'm not the only one that thought of putting something like that on this.

In all truth, I practice piano every day, I breath, I drink water, I sleep, I shower, etc.

AND THAT IS IT.

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Totally random but look at this nasty ass cut in the bottom of my left foot:

I got it after tripping off of a latter while not wearing shoes.

And so I cut myself on a brick....

Smart, eh? XD

I mean, now I'll have a mark to match the scar on top of my foot:

Beautiful.....

Like this BEAUTIFUL MAKEUP IN THIS PIC

What is my life.