if i don't update ever again i am really sorry because it means i killed myself. if i wake up tomorrow and feel like it's something i wont do then i'll update again. you guys mean a lot to me but i found out my girlfriend is doing heroin, i've got a handful of klonopin, so does she, i have two super strong sleeping pills, so does she, so we might both be dead soon. i love her with everything i am except for the love i have for my little brother. i don't know what to do. i get bullied and pushed around and picked on and hurt all the time. my mother promised shed move up to where i am so that i can see my baby brother more and she fucking lied. i have scars all up and down my legs and on my wrists and a few on my sides and some on my stomach. but the ones on my stomach just tell me what i am. fat and ugly. i don't even know if she meant it when she told me she loved me and it hurts so much. i'm such a messed up person and i'm lost. i wont be lost when im dead. ill delete this if im not dead if i update again. if im not dead. id like to be dead. i have nightmares or you could call them dreams or fantasies or whatever of killing myself in multiple different ways. i'm going to combine them all and do it if i do decide to just kill myself. i mean seriously. we live we die. what the fuck is the point in living. i promised her that i'd combine and do them if she did heroin. ok. done. none of you probably care about any of this but i needed to let you know. so, much love, maybe my last post.
- imheretotakethesky
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Heaven Help Us
قصص الهواةRain Moore is now 25, living with Raven Moore and Dante Phoenix, raising Jepharee Moore. Andy Biersack's son. Andy has been spiraling into an over excessive drinking, pill taking, and sex-addled life. One call from their tour managers changes everyt...
