Choni one shots

51: The One Where Nothing Makes Sense To Toni

TONI POV:

I take a deep breath. None of this is making any sense! I put my pencil down and get up. "You ok babe?" Cheryl ask look up at me. I walk over to her and sit down. "None it makes sense!" She rubs my back. "Come on we'll do it together." She gets up and takes my hand. "What?" She sits me down at the small table in the kitchen. "Cheryl please." I whisper. "I don't want to look at this right now." I look at her. "Have you thought about seeing a tutor?" She ask quietly. I nod. "It's never helps and it gets to expensive." I play with my shirt. "How well can you read?" She ask quietly. "Not that well, why? It's been like that forever." I say sitting up. She holds my shoulder and gives me a sympathetic look. "Maybe there's something else going on." I shake my head. "That's impossible. I've done fine up until now." I say in denial. "Toni, you need help and I think you should talk to someone at school who can help." She whispers. "I'm fine, I'm just struggling through this one thing." I say shrugging it off. "Toni." I shake my head. "I'm fine. It's getting late I'm going to bed."

"Toni what is with your homework from last night?" The teacher ask in front of the entire class. "I turned it in." I say frustrate. She just rolls her eyes. "Ok, come see me after class." Class goes on and nothing makes sense. It never has. Maybe Cheryl was right. I don't want her to be right! Because I'm always right! The bell rings and I go up to the teacher. "Toni you're not trying hard enough. Maybe if you just put in a little more effort you would be able to do this." She says looking at my work. "I did. I spent 3 hours on that." I say so frustrated and so done with everything. "Toni you're a smart kid, you just need to put more effort into your work. Ok?" I nod so she'll shut up. "Ok, see you tomorrow." I walk out. Luckily it was the end of the day and I can now go home. I walk out to my bike wear Cheryl already is. "How was school?" She ask handing me my helmet. "It was fine." We get on and I drive to my trailer. Once we get there I go and lie on the couch. "What's wrong?" She ask quietly. "Maybe you were right." I confess. "So you're going to talk to someone!" I shake my head. "I'll be fine though." She looks at me. "I'm going to talk to your grandfather if you don't talk to someone because maybe he can smack some sense into you." I sit up. "Please don't. I don't want him to worry." I say quietly. "Than talk to someone about this and get the help you need." I shake my head. "I'm fine." I walk over to her. She goes to the door. "No." I stop her. "Will go get help?" I shake my head. She opens the door and walks out.

CHERYL POV:

I knock on Toni's Grandfather's door. He opens the door. "Hello Cheryl." He smiles. "Toni doesn't want to admit that she has some kind of learning problem." Toni catches up to me. "Come in both of you." He let's us into his small trailer. We both sit down as he gets tea. "Cheryl we don't need to do this." She whispers. "Really Toni? because you need help." She sits back. "I can get through this by myself." She whispers. Toni's grandfather sits in front of us. "What is the problem?" He sits back as I tell him about what's going on. Toni tries to butt in but I stop her every time. "She's lying." Toni says standing up. "You're lying!" I stand up. "Toni! Trust me when I this, you need some help." I cup her cheeks and look her right in the eye. "Cheryl." Her eyes start to fill with tears. "Why? Why do you keep denying this?" I ask quietly. "Honestly." She looks down for a second. "I don't want people to think I'm stupid or or weak. I don't want that label." She whispers as a tear falls from her face. "Toni. No one has to know unless you tell them." I whisper. She bites her lip. "I know, it's just- I don't know." I rub her cheek. "Toni, getting help for something that is wrong is more important than what people think of you! Because when you're older it's going to be much worse." I tell her. "You're right." What? "What?" I look at her in shock. "Please don't make me repeat myself." She looks away. "I didn't hear you the first time. What was that?" She walks to the door. "I'm not repeating myself!" I smile. "Because I was right and you were wrong?" I say walk over to her. She opens the door and walks out. "I'm not saying it again!" She yells going to her trailer. "Because I was right for once?" She turns around. "Yes." She takes a deep breath and goes in. "Thank you." I walk in behind her.

Toni walks out of the room they were testing her in. "Well?" She looks down. "I don't want to talk about it right now." She whispers looking like her heart was ripped out of her chest and thrown on the floor. She fixes her bag and walks a few steps and stops. "Thank you though for finally confronting me about this." She says turning around. "I'll see you at home, I just need some time alone to process everything." She walks away. I know exactly where she is going, I'll give her a hour or two and find her at SweetWater. I walk away and go to practice. Once that's done I go find Toni. I get out of the car and walk to her. "Toni?" She wipes her tears quickly and turns around. "Hey, baby." I sit next to her and rap me arm around her. She lies her head on my shoulder and we sit there in silence until she breaks it. "They said I had a global learning disability, they wouldn't tell me what though. Apparently they need to talk to my grandpa first and he can tell me." She sits up. "It took 17 years for someone to realize that something was wrong with me. 17 years, it's like they were just waiting for me to fail and drop out." She holds back tears. "Do realize how hard everything has been for me and have no one noticed?" She ask quietly. "Yeah not about this but not when it comes to this." I whisper moving hair out of her face. "Hey." She looks up at me. "I'm going to be here every step of the way, I love you Toni." Her eyes widen. Shit! I didn't mean to say that! Like I did just not yet. "Toni I-." She stops me. "I love you." She whispers.