Finding Contentus

Chapter 34: The R&R Tale (3)

"I will say, that I'm not exactly sure on how I am going to take you to the next few places of my story. Since this is the part in which I was thrown straight into hell, to being able to briefly escape hell for some time, before burning and crashing back down to it."

Renero fixed him a sharp look biting down on his lips. They had finally arrived at the portion he really had to face and confront. The true weight of his sins.

"Firstly, I'll say that the next four years after my trials were rather... how should I say... numbing to death."

"They came and went like the sun and the moon, and so did my crippling humanity."

"As Prince, my father made me do his bidding, his dirty work and all his deeds in having control over some of our armies and our forces, from the warriors to the specialist crafters that were trained to only obey and follow instructions, the ones that became my followers, hooded in black."

"I mentioned before the unease concerning the Mambo prophecy. Well, this unease only continued to grow. Aside from the racial division in Metro, another problem we faced was severe overpopulation. The Shona people were too many and they only continued to grow."

"Some of the elites would say 'they breed like cockroaches.' There was also the problem of the primals of course that reigned on the vast outskirts of land that only added to their own numbers with the spreading gene across the province even with all our spells, enchantments and military might."

"So... as the bringer of death, my father tightened control over the Shona's and Indians. Raising their taxes, their labors, their workload and reducing their income, their food and medical supplies along with their already diminishing will power. My forces were then sent to systematically cleanse the lot by the masses to reduce their numbers for stabilization."

"Our resources and minerals were also tightened with strict laws on distribution between our people and theirs, not to mention the wealth system that was more self serving to us. He placed heavier duty on the Gypti commanders posted in their areas along with the Afri people to monitor and patrol however they saw fit."

"The laws were brutal in which the Shona's and Indians lost more and more basic human rights that they quite frankly never had in the first place unless they worked under us and attained favored reserved positions to provide for their families."

"In short, he wanted to economically, politically, and socially destroy their spirits, with me as the executioner through mass slaughter for the next four years."

A disturbing cold overtook him, holding him in place as he let out a reluctant sigh.

"The only solace I took with me was that I would always sincerely apologize to all those I had to kill. I knew the words meant nothing, but they were simply words I had to say each and every time, like when you mourn over death and have nothing else to say other than 'I am sorry' and what not."

"Did they care? Did they know I truly didn't mean it? Did they know I was simply doing my job? Did they know how many times I died inside with each death? Did they know I had no other choice? That I had no ill feelings of hatred or malice towards them?"

"I do not know. I'll never know. I can't even hear their voices and cries of despair in my head anymore. I muted them all out as my only way to cope. Weak and cowardly isn't it?"

"The only thing I could see, was the light that left all their eyes. The light that I believed was sent to the better place I saw all those years ago with Anubis. The place I dreamed about every single day."

"The afterlife of true equality where they wouldn't have to suffer anymore. Yes, that's what I convinced myself of. So much so that it became the only truth of justification in my mind. I wasn't wrong. I was just a being that ushered them into a better world so that the rest of us could survive. Death wasn't bad, evil or cruel that way. I told myself these things on repeat in order to continue doing them until one day. I suddenly stopped apologizing and counting when the numbers crossed over the scale of..."