Chapter 41: Alarming Self

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She swam from her treasures in her smilodon form. She swam away from everything that chased her. Away from everything that wanted to devour her. Away from everything that wanted to destroy her. Away from everything that wanted to see her dead.

"Small, feeble, tiny, little, insignificant prey."

Shut up! I'm not feeble! I'm not tiny! And I'm not some insignificant prey!

She did not know the hostile voice, and she did not know the other growing voices. They were voices belonging to the voiceless. They had no distinct figures or shapes. They simply moved in black shadows at fast speeds, so fast that no matter how fast she swam, she felt herself losing speed and strength by the second.

"The big devour the small, the strong trample over the weak."

Tsek! So what? You think I don't know that? You think I don't know how nature works? Well guess what? All of those rules and workings can go die and rot in hell! I'm not weak, I'm strong! I'm as strong as it gets! My size means nothing when my number of one is everything!

Despite her brave rebuttals, she could feel them ripping at her back, her arms and legs, damaging her nervous system, compelling her to give up.

Ha,eh! She negated. Mon you stupid body! Work! Work! Work and fucking run like I'm telling you dammit!

Like a person who had their life unfairly taken away in death, her body was unresponsive to her commands. Worn out, tired and simply... unfit to match the strength she professed she possessed.

No matter how strong, defiant and resilient her will was in her mind, her body, like the voices rightfully said, was still far too weak and frail to match her predator mindset to not be swallowed whole and taken out.

"You will forever be far too small in this big world."

Size doesn't matter for shit! Only strength matters! Only hearts matter! The bigger you are the harder you fall down and down, so the smaller I am, the higher I'll jump up and up cause I'm a—

"STUPID GIRL! That's exactly what you are! You are nothing more than puny meat to be hunted! Let your tiny heart be feasted upon! Let your microscopic existence beat you back down to a useless lifeform! Accept your fate of death in the circle of life! Accept your destiny in the natural pecking order of life!"

"Stop running, and just be eaten. Stop running, and be preyed upon. Stop running, and just be yourself, your true minor self in the major world. Stop running, and become one with inevitability. Stop running, and become enlightened with the life you will give to those that need it more than you need your own pathetic existence as a noisy nuisance of nothing but cursed trouble!"

Tsek! Tsek! Tsek! Noisy nuisance? Fine! Here's more noise for you! You wanna eat me? Go ahead! I taste hot and spicy like an Amandla bomb! I'm gonna fry and blow up your insides hotter than the chilliest sauce and fiery pepper you'll ever feast upon! Eat up you big bullies, cause this stupid prey will prey on your fucking insides and win while you lose!

One could hear and feel the hungry smiles through all the voices that held her in place with the sharpest kind of teeth imaginable. Her movements had come to a dead stop. She couldn't move a muscle, an inch, anything.

"And how will prey like you prey on predators like us when you cannot even move?"

Shut up!

"When you cannot even fight back."

Shut up!

"When all you can do is fail, fall, drown and scream with no one to save you. You poor poor idiotic girl."

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