Obey Me: Little Random Scenes And Thoughts

A Confident Love Asmo x reader 2

Asmo's POV:

I laid in y/n's bed with them asleep in my arms. "I just wanted you to open up. To finally be honest with yourself and me." Those words kept repeating in my mind over and over, after I had said them. 'honest with yourself'.... But I wasn't honest. I had the same pain inside of me that y/n had in them. The insecurities, the sadness, the urge to please others but I suppressed it the same way they did. I was a fraud, Simeon was right. I needed that gratification. I needed people to see me as beautiful and confident. I needed to be the center of attention to feel loved. I craved it. Everyone wanted me because of the title attached to my name, Avatar of Lust. They just wanted to make love and have a good time, to feel good. I gave that to them. I enjoyed it when in the moment but guilt would hit me after. I never showed it though, never gave anyone a hint of sadness or discomfort. I wanted more than that though. Y/N awakened something in me when I met them. Something that I've wanted for a long time, for someone to actually love me. Not for my body, not for the undeniable pleasures I could give them, not for the bragging rights, but just for me, for everything I am. They were the only one to see me when I was at my worst.

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One night I remembered coming home from The Fall, drunk beyond all belief. Y/n was there, they helped me get to my room and got me cleaned up. I constantly tried to hit on them over and over, but apparently I wasn't doing a great job. I remember tripping on the carpet... I remember them laughing and then realizing I was crying and they tried to calm me down. They held me and let me cry. It wasn't pretty. I tried to tell them to go away, that I didn't want them seeing me in this state, but they wouldn't leave. They stayed and I fell asleep in my drunken stupor.

I woke up on my floor the next morning, tear stains on my face, hair a mess, and Y/n under me. I felt ashamed and embarrassed so I tried to sneak into the bathroom to clean up without being noticed, but y/n spotted me and laughed. "Well, you look great." They teased. I was angry but when I saw the smile on their face I couldn't help but chuckle a little. "Count yourself lucky, you got to see me in such a state. Not even my brothers have seen me like that, not for a looong time, at least." From then on I knew Y/n was truly special and I wanted to make them mine.

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Y/N shifted in my arms and yawned. "How long have I been asleep?" They asked tiredly. I just smiled at the sleepy angel in my grip. "Not long." They stretched and turned to nuzzle their face in my chest. "Y/n..." They hummed in question. "I haven't been honest with you." They shot up and looked me in my eyes. "You don't love me? It was a lie. I knew it..." They cried. "Whoa, whoa, whoa my little dove, that's not it, I do love you." I stressed. Time to be honest. "I just... I'm sure you think I have everything together, I'm just narcissistic. The truth is though, I have the same insecurities you do. You hear me talk about myself all the time, but its more for me than others. I'm just trying to... talk myself up... I have issues..." I faltered. "I know." Y/n whispered. This time I looked at them in suprise. "I just wanted you to open up and to finally be honest with yourself and me." I couldn't help but kiss Y/n passionately. Using my own words on me like that. The fact that they could see through me when no one else could, that I could show them my true self. I love Y/n more than anything, maybe even more than myself!