Chapter 67:I still miss him

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Jungkook pov ~

Today it's  a bit gloomy I really hate Sunny this I like raining and storms now cause when it's sunny I keep remembering our memories our time that we spend together and it's made me broke into a sob a loud cry screaming crying and begging that I hope he will come back I been like that for a few months but still the same until this day .

Today is raining I really feel good when you watch the rain drop drop on your window watching the clouds turn to black and started storming  and raining rain drops when the day is like this I cry almost this all time cause I feel like someone is crying with me I just distance my self from the guys just cause you know I need time alone to think to rebuild my self again . They understand an just let me but they never forget to visit me sometimes or call or text me but I keep distancing my self so they'd top and just understand me .But they still keep update about me but some ways

As the rain drop on my window I just admire it and watch it flow I always lock my self an just eat when am really hungry am in my room now looking at my window while it's raining hearing the rain drops hearing the drops drop on the ground floor made me relax and made me think peacefully while I think I didn't notice that tear is rolling on my cheeks I wipe it equickly and close my eyes and just listening to the rain but still thinking is haunting me .

It's been two months I think that jimin broke up with me and left me it's kinda hard to move on even I drink the pain away there's no use even I smoke there's no use too I can't seems too forget or move on I still love him and still miss him even I deny it to my self saying I don't need him anymore I don't love him I will never miss him my heart ache when I said that cause I know deep down to my self that I still love him my heart my mind always looking for him looking for his touch his  presence his voice I still miss him and love him even I keep denying it .

Everytime I deny it it keep hurting me my heart is keep aching  and I began to feel pain His my first love his the first person that took my heart took my interest nobody took my interest back them even I fuck many different handsome and beautiful people only jimin stoled my heart so when he broke up with me I feel a pang in my heart and ache even I keep trying to forget him trying to let him go let me move on I cannot cause the wounds in my heart are still not full recoverd not fully healed.

I said to myself that I wouldn't love someone again cause I don't want to feel this pain anymore it keep me suffering it hurting a lot when your first love your first person you treasure and give full of your heart and love  is the same person that will just broke your heart
It really hurt me even I keep trying to erase  the memories  we spend together it's really hard cause it's to precious that I treasure it both in my heart and mind it's hard to forget or erase .

I treasure all the moment that we spent I still keep thinking of our memories a little bit of our own chapter I thought we will walk on the same path but maybe am wrong the destiny just across our path but in the end of our path together is ended last two months I go bit am still hoping that path and destiny will do something so we will go back I really miss him so much but if we are really not meant to be together I will just stay single or just be a fuck boy again  cause I don't want to love I don't want to experience this pain again I learn my lesson by this heartbreak so I don't want to do it again this is enough experience cause it's really hurt me like there's an invisible bully in my heart I try to remove it but I cannot even I try to remove that bullet a bullet that cause my pain even I try to remove that bullet so that pain will go I cannot cause even how much I try it it wouldn't be remove so here am I suffering through the pain" I just wish for jimin is I hope you eating well have a  healthy body  and be happy and enjoy your new life there i don't know where I hope you will not forget about me cause even we ended am still part of your journey I'm still part on your chapter I hope you will be happy cause I'm finally letting you go I love you jimin"I mumble beneath my breath as I cry my last tears my last pain I can finally move on and flip my next chapter on my life I will rebuild my self my new strong self the new no feelings or affections I can finally build my self and start a new life if he can start I can start too as I wipe my last tears I smile at my self finally you can see the new me .

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Hi lovely jikookers(≧▽≦) this chapter is just jungkook thought and quiet what happening to his life and around him hope your still reading please don't forget to vote or comment thank you for supporting and I love you ♥  

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