"Save Me" A Demi Lovato/Fifth Harmony FanFic"

Chapter 33

Krystal's P.O.V

I woke up to the sound of the girls laughing downstairs. See they dont need me. They can be happy without me. I wish I died. No I can't think like that. I need go find the girls before i do anything I will regret.

I walk down the stairs to find the girls and go into the kitchen. It got really quite. I looked over at Lauren and she stiffined up.

K-"Umm. Lauren can I...umm...Talk to you?'

Lauren shook her head. All of the girls were looking at us. Lauren went and stood behind Dinah. All of girls were looking at me with questioning eyes. I ignored them and walked up to Lauren.

K-I'm not mad at you. Please come talk to me.

Lauren look up at me in complete fear. I hugged her and she hugged me back. She clug to me like her life depended on it. She started crying on my sholder. I scooped her up into my arm and carried her up into my room. The girls tried to follow but I shook my head at them and they left.

I sat her on my bed and kneeled in front of her.

K- Lauren, please talk to me.

She looked up at me with pleading eyes. I shook my head. She was gonna tell me what happened.

K-Lauren please. How many days?

L-26

I gulped.

K-umm. Ok. How many?

She looked up at me with tears in her eyes.

L-A lot.

K-Lauren, if u tell me I'll show you my scar from when I tried to end my life.

Lauren looked at me with trusting eyes and answered;

L-379 over the course of 26 days

My eyes went wide.

K-Laur that means you harmed yourself at least 14 times a day.

She just nodded.

I looked to my right wrist and started taking off the wrapping. I haven't seen it yet and I'm scared to.

When I finished undoing the wrapping and gaws. I looked down at my arm and there was just a deep cut along the center of my wrist with stitches.

Lauren looked at it and her eyes went wide.

L-Krys....
K-No don't talk about it. I don't want to. I'm not gonna ask you why you did what you did. But please never do it again. You don't have to be the strong one. Like my mom said in her goodbye; "Everyone breaks at some point." Don't ever think you have to be the strong one. You can cry Lauren.

When I said that she just broke down crying.

L-*while crying* I thought w-we lost you. I c-couldn't handle the t-thought of it. M-My demons wouldn't l-leave my head. T-they said I-I'm the one that m-made you try and k-kill yourself.

K-Lauren you're not the reason I did what I did. You and the other girls are one of the reasons why I stay strong most of the time. But Laur you have to tell the girls. They deserve to know.

I got up off the floor and pulled Lauren up and hugged her. She nodded her head on my shoulder.

L- Can I do it in like 10 mins. Can u go distract them some how? I need to figure out how I'm going to say it. I'll tell them the full reason why though.

K-Ok, See u then.

Lauren kissed my temple and said "thank you"

I kissed her cheek and said "you're welcome"

I walked down the stairs. the girls shot up and stopped when they noticed I didn't have my wrapping in and they could see the full scar. All of their eyes were wide eyed starring at my arm....and I started getting self-conscious. So I put my arm behind my back. I started to get really nervous. I started to mess with my fingers.

K-U-umm h-hi g-guys.

I'm stuttering. I'm messing with my fingers. I'm nervous. I'm breathing hard. Panic attack.

They replied back with heys and hi or hellos.

I looked at Dinah and she was eyeing me. She then looked at my hands. Then it was like a lightbulb went off in her head.

She pushed the girls out of the way since she was standing in the back. And walked towards me. She hugged me and my vision started to get blurry.

DJ-Hey....hey....hey. Krys calm down. Breath. Match my breathing. You're ok. You're fine. Just breath.

My breathing started to slow. I finally hugged Dinah back.

(Whispering)

K-DJ I don't want them staring at my scar.
DJ- Hey Krys. We didn't mean to make you have a panic attack by starting at your scar. We were just shocked when we saw how deep it was.
K-Can I talk to you in the kitchen?
DJ- Sure babe.

We laughed at that and DJ told the girls what's going on and came into the kitchen with me.

K-Dinah...

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I'm sorry I couldn't write more. I got sick today when I was suppose to go to a funeral for a family friend. So I'll try and have a longer chapter next weekend. Sorry again.