Dear Suzzette ✓

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Get ready,muffins.Buckle up.

Chapter 42

All hell break loose

Feeling tired and sore at all,I help myself to get up.It's past midnight and I still keep on crying.Napalingon ako sa tabi ko Kung saan mahimbing na natutulog ang asawa ko.Kasabay nang paninikip nang dibdib ko ay ang pagtangis.

It all happened in just a night.A night that I couldn't forget.The night when I lose myself to him... without my proper consent.He's drugged ,I should take consider of that but it isn't a valid reason to screw me like a whore.He's my husband but he can't just abuse me.

I am sure that if he wakes up tomorrow he will forget what he did to me.That's the side effect of aphrodisiac.I am sure that if he wakes up,he would be disgusted at me.

I sniffed and wiped my tears.Nadaplisan nang tingin ko ang pulang patak nang likido sa puting bedsheet.I bit my lower lip.This is not what I dreamed for.I want him to own me because he loves me,not when he's drugged and senseless.

Pinilit ko ang sarili ko para makatayo.I covered myself with the comforter because my dress is ruined.Nilingon ko pa nang huling beses si Eren bago nagpasyang umalis.When I get inside of my room,I immediately went to the shower.

Panay ang kuskos ko sa katawan dahil nandidiri ako.Maarte na Kung maarte Pero Hindi ko talaga ginusto ang nangyari sa amin.It all happened without love.I do love him but with what happened it makes my feelings fade.We have sex without my consent.

I can feel my feminity throb in pain.I didn't able to walk properly as I went here,this hot shower made it comfortable.

Kapag nalaman niya na may nangyari sa Amin Hindi Siya maniniwala panigurado Kaya isesekreto ko ang lahat.Magtitiis ako Kasi ganun Naman talaga ang puwang ko sa buhay niya.Ang isakripisyo ko ang lahat,kalayaan,ang sarili maging ang kaligayahan ko.

Mariin Kong kinagat ang Labi ko.In my almost year of marriage with him,I can only remember those moments that I was happy with him.Mabibilang ko Lang sa daliri ko.Because most of the time,he would always cause me pain.Pilit ang kaligayahan na nadama ko sa kanya.

I frustratingly rake my hair with my fingers as my thoughts drifted on Third.He was the only person who makes me happy.My heart aches in pain.

The person who always made me genuinely happy was hurting because of me.The person who always understand me,I push him away.I always hurt him.

Hindi Kami pwede eh.I am tied with Eren and I can see any escape out.Well,if I will file a divorce paper.Iyon Naman talaga ang dapat pinatunguhan nang kasal kasalan na Ito Diba?It was just my stupid decision to prolong this.

Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog ako sa gitna nang pag-iisip ko.The rays of the sun woke me up,I am a little sore but I can now walk properly I guess the hot shower was helpful.

Bumaba ako at naabutan ko si Eren na nasa dining.He is quiet and now dressed for work.I feel myself trembling at the sight of him so I stepped back and was about to turn around.

"Where are you going?"

His cold voice brings shiver to my whole system.Napalunok ako at binaba ang tingin.I can't look at him.I can still vividly remember what happened last night.He humiliated me and even if he's my husband I can't forgive him.

"Eat here.I am done." sabay tapon nang table napkin.He stood up and I stepped back, startled.Napakunot ang noo niya nang masulyapan ako.I didn't lifted my gaze at him as I can feel him staring at me. "Do you remember what happened to me,last night?"