Trouble 🌀 EDITING

Fix You

I jump awake, breathing heavily tears dripping from my eyes. I stand up my legs feel like jelly. I hold onto my bed so I don't fall. I take a deep breath standing up straight. I didn't know what I was doing. I quietly open my door. I walk to the kitchen to get a water. I felt a wave of sick overtake me.

"Hey you ok" I jump out of my skin screaming accidentally dropping the water. I stare at the broken glass on the floor. Tears falling down my face. "Hey kiddo princess your ok" Dad said rushing over "it's fine we can clean it up" he moved me away from the broken glass, sitting me down on a chair. I was in shock just staring. I watch dad clean it up. He comes back over forcing me to look up him. "What's wrong princess" I shake my head "come on I know you cried yourself to sleep you just stared after breaking a glass something is wrong" I sniff "I'm broken daddy everything bad happens to me I just" I let out a sob dad pulls me to him picking me up and walking with me in his arms to the couch to sit with me. "I had a nightmare where I killed him" "hey we know you didn't" he told me holding me tight I eventually calm listening to his heartbeat.

I hadn't left my dads side, I basically stuck like glue to him. I knew he was worried him. I felt bad. That's how I ended up here sitting opposite Dr Charles. Will had mentioned to my dad that maybe speaking to him would help. I felt bad for making everyone so worried. "Want to tell me why your here" "I'm making everyone worried" I shrug looking away. "I'm here to listen" he said I sigh "I don't know what to say" I say quietly I always hated talking about my feeling. I only did it with dad but then he met Hailey so I started talking Adam. Even then it was hard Natalie had told me she thinks it's a Halstead trait. "What about recently what have you been feeling" he probably could tell or even knew that I wasn't good at this. I run my hand through my hair. "Um I have been crying" I rub my face before fiddling with my hands "I think I got someone killed" he hums hanging off ever word. "I was with Belle he got shoved into the car I don't know what really happened but they spoke to him punched him before the guys stepped away to talk, Belle went with them. I was alone I...before I could blink he was holding me against the wall like like I was pushed against the desk" he sighs "he tried to rape me" I gasp out "I had a gun I had taken it from a friend I shot him once before I panicked dropping the gun...I sat beside the car crying I didn't know I promise I thought I killed him. But my dad and Adam told me he was shot three times meaning they killed him because he tried to rape me. Which means the vice lords killed those two kids who got in the way because of me and now Tyler his a vice lords I play soccer with his sister he. I went to tell him the truth I couldn't live without them knowing the truth of how he tried to rape me. He told me they won't kill me or Belle. We messaging just talking I had known him since I was ten, so we were somewhat friends. I sent him a picture of who was there that night. I think I just signed five guys death sentence, I told Adam who is running them through facial rec but they are going to kill them because of me" "I have a question when you pushed up against the wall did you flashback to being on the desk" I nod "every time someone I don't  know touches me I'm back in that room" he hums writing something down. "I dropped a glass last night" "yeah" he nods gesturing for me to continue "my dad scared me it's like whenever I don't know someone's there I jump, I either throw what I have at the or drop it. I dropped the glass and I just stared at it my dad had to clean it up cause I was frozen" he nods "the sound it was so loud" "how loud" I pause "loud like the gun shot I could see my dad talking but I couldn't hear it I just heard the gunshot" he writes something else down humming.

We talk for a little longer before I leave walking through the hospital down to find Will. That was the plan find Will. I turn a corner walking into the ED when someone bumps into me. I stumble back, normally I would check on the person. But I was stuck in a trance staring at the blood in my hands. It wasn't just on my hands but that's what I was staring at. My reality flashed between the ED around and that dark room where I shot him. I could feel my heartbeat pick up. I felt someone touch me cause me to scream "no no I don't" I repeat I heard multiple footsteps they sounded like the were racing towards us. "Bai" the voice was so distant I didn't even know who spoke. I flinch when the touch me jumping away, I felt myself collide with a wall. "Bai hey your ok" I hold onto the wall, I hear the footsteps come closer causing me to scream "no no I didn't mean to I didn't mean to kill him I'm sorry" I just stare at the body on the floor. "Bailey it's Dr Charles" I nod looking around tears falling from my eyes "your at the hospital we just finished a session" "the blood" i whimper out "hey you just told me that even you know you didn't kill him" "where are you right now" it's like my world disappeared. Everything faded away I wasn't in that room, my teacher wasn't raping me and I hadn't killed anyone. I look up seeing Will and Connor giving me concerned looks and doctor Charles kneeling before me. "Will" I gasp Dr Charles gestures for him to stay there. "What just happened" he asks me "I bumped into someone" I look around seeing that it was only me and the three Doctors here. "I I was with him against the desk but then I saw the blood" I look at the blood on my hands "I killed him he was laying there" "you didn't kill him your teacher is in prison and the other guy one of the other kids killed him" I hang off his every word like it's a lifeline. He helps me stand up, I immediately rush over to Will hugging him tight. Will was sending Dr Charles very concerned looks. "Call jay don't leave her alone with anyone she doesn't know" he demands "she's going to be ok right" Will asks "with the right medication and care she will be perfect" Dr Charles said smiling "I will discuss with Jay what's going on when he gets here...page me if anything happens but if she remains with people she knows nothing should happen" he adds before walking away to treat other people. "Come on" Will led me into the break room allowing me to just sit in his arms. When he was called away Connor would come in. They told Maggie so when I was alone no one would surprise enter.