ℂ𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕥𝕤 𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕒/캐럿 아이디어

𝙿𝚕𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

{Jihan}

⚠TW⚠: mention of an suicidal attempt
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-Jeonghan pov-
It was so loud yet so quiet at the same time and i don't know how long i can keep seeing this, it hurt so bad.

"please don't let go i can't stand being alone stay with me for ever!!" i yelled.

The room was so hot yet so cold i felt like i was going to melt and freeze to death all at the same time.

"jeonghan i'm sorry but i just can't stand it what i done was enough and i want to go there nothing you can do"

"I DON'T CARE IF IM BEING SELFISH I WANT YOU TO STAY" my tear were so warm as they run down my face, the room felt like it was going to fill with my tear and drown us to death.

"jeonghan stop there nothing you can do i just don't want to be here i love you but you can't love me for what i've done" he smiled like nothing was happening and i couldn't help but want to scream but my voice wouldn't work with me.

"stop please stop stop stop stop stop stop" i close my eye holding my head.

"please tell me this is not real, WAKE UP WAKE UP PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!"

"WAKE THE FUCK UPPP!!!!"
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"baby wake up it time to go" i open my eye slowly to see the love of my life standing in front of me.

"but i want to stay longer it so beautiful here" i pouted and joshua looked at me with a frown.

"yeah screaming 'WAKE UP' in your sleep make you want to stay longer"

Joshua rolled his eye, but laid down next to me looking up at the sky.

"jeonghan i love but you really need to talk to somebody about this, it affecting not only us but other people"

"what do you mean" i looked away from the sky to look at him and so he did the same looking at me with a straight face.

"jeonghan you haven't talk to any of our friends in the last couple weeks they've been worried sick calling and texting me" joshua said.

I nodded knowing it was true, but the dream or should i say nightmare have been stuck with me for so long.

"i think it time to talk to them and somebody, it happen years ago and we're all ok now" i nodded rolling a little on the grass "want to go home?"

He nodded sitting up from the grass dusting the dirt that was left on him.

"you know there a therapist not far from where you work" he looked at me as we walked to the car.

"you should call and check it out to cause i think if i have a talking buddy other than you then you should to"

He smiled.

I smiled back before looking down at the grass looking at all the different color flower.

I stopped and picked one up putting it behind joshua ear, i just liked the color of it making me feel warm.

"what in my ear?"

"a flower, beautiful just like you"

He looked down and i could just see the blush on his face, i smiled even wider.

"your such a cheesy flirt but i still love you" he stopped and pinched my cheek.

We finally made it to the car getting inside, i was driving while joshua sat in the passenger seat next to me.

I started the car letting music play, it was a clamming song; everyday by SURL.

The car ride was quiet and we of course stop for food cause joshua was hungry.

"here your food" i handed him his food with a smile waiting for my food cause i myself was hungry as well.

"hey jeonghan can i ask you a serious question?" joshua ask looking at me.

-3rd P.O.V-
"sure" jeonghan kept his gaze on the road before telling him to ask his question.

"why did yo- why did you stay with me after what i did?" jeonghan almost stop the car in the middle of the road.

"joshua i didn't stay with you cause i felt bad ok....i stayed with you cause i really love you i didn't pity you in any way, i know i almost lost you but i'm here. I am with you still from high school to now and look at us we're better people now. People had heard me and you and they forgave you for what you did so don't feel bad cause we stayed with you all the way through"

Joshua smiled after hearing jeonghan whole rant, it made him feel better in so many way and he didn't know how to thank jeonghan and his friends for being with him all the way through.

"jeonghan i love you with all my heart and i hope we stay together forever"

"of course, now let finish eating and go home so we can get this therapist and have a lifting convo with our friend"

Joshua nodded. They pull into the driveway of there very welcoming home.

"home sweet home" they walked up to the door to unlock it, but it was already unlocked and there was a weird smell coming from the basement.

"you smell that too?"

"very clearly" they then heard some talking and....is that music!?

They put there stuff away and rushed down the stair seeing all 11 of there friends standing there and basically having a party.

"ok what the fuck is going on here?"

"uhhh well i came here to talk to you guy cause it been 5 year since joshua got save but nobody was here and i already called them to come over" mingy said.

"yeah and we brought drink, food, candy, music, prop, and we even got a cake made just for joshua" scoup added in.

"please don't get mad we were just waiting for you guy to come home and got a little bored" dino said with a dirty look on his face.

Joshua just couldn't help but laugh at there friend honesty.

"you guy are crazy not even thinking to call, you know i would've been here in second" joshua said running to hug them with a smile.

jeonghan had a sad face for a second before laughing, making everybody else laugh as well.

"you guy are stupid throwing a party right in plain sight"

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{AN: more of a weird/crazy/sad/other word this i don't know story, it had tear and more. Also i tried my best in the beginning and trying to figure out how i'm going to put the phrase of plain sight in a story, but other then that i love you and good night have sweet dream🤍}