𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐀𝐆𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐓 𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐄

21 . 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒕𝒉 𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒆𝒅

Yn's Perspective -

His question really caught me off guard but till when I'll be running away from my fears?

Till when I'll be hiding my scars and about everything ? Eventually one day he will get to know about everything . I think it's better to talk everything out . About all my insecurities , about my parents, how they forced me , and also about why I wanted to study further .

I don't think he will stop me from studying further, did he ? But what if he does ?

But what if he supports you ? Tell him your problem, he's your husband, he's not someone who'll hurt you . Just tell him ,You can't do this anymore
It's so much for you , you need to tell him . He'll surely help you if you don't tell him what you've been feeling . Don't bleed those who don't hurt you and please tell him .

My gut never turns out bad . I should tell him . Yes yn you can do it ! " So what do you wanna know about Jungkook ?

" He smiled as he said " Since when did they become abusive to you yn ? ''

I chuckled as I shook my head

" They were never abusive , they never hit me , or yelled at me . In Fact , they are the best parents I've got and I'm so glad for that "

I said while looking at moon as he , listening carefully as I continued
" Actually jungkook " I turned around as our faces inches apart as he said " yes sweetcake "

my nickname feels so right . Please god tell me he's the right person for me ? " I never wanted this marriage "

the moment I let out i thought he would be shocked or anything but he silently listened to me " i know yn , I'm listening let it out okay "

he knows ? How ? I took a deep breath as I revealed myself to him .

" I have always wanted to study further , to make my parents proud. And do things which I ever see other people doing. I always wanted to open a youtube channel and what not , I love to bake cakes , I like to draw , I like to calligraphy , I love to have cats . I always wanted to achieve big things in life . "

His left hand came in contact with my cheeks as he tugged my hair behind my ear which was interrupting his view as I continued

" but unfortunately I wasn't able to score the desired marks according to my parents . I've given my best jungkook , I did my best . That time , everything was messed up , my body , my face , my academic background , every single thing was so messed up .

I was gaining weight so rapidly , I got depressed. I didn't tell them , everyday I was afraid of my future. What if I wasn't able to give what my parents deserve? What if I wasn't able to become a successful independent woman in my future?

What if I messed up everything , what if they hate me for who I am . And I didn't tell them because what would they do ? Parents can't help you but to tell you not to be stressed out but I was not in the position to even tell them what I was going through .

I used to be such a bubbly, entertaining girl but look at me now i feel like I'm the most disgusting person ever -"

Jungkook's Perspective -

" I used to be such a bubbly, entertaining girl but look at me now I feel like I'm the most disgusting person ever -''

I sealed her lips with mine . Her tears couldn't stop flowing , I couldn't see her cry . She has been going through alot , she is just like every other girl who wants to be successful but doesn't know how .

Always worry about how it will work out for her , but I know she will do it , she can do it !God helps those who want it badly and she wants it badly , she wants to make everyone proud.

She broke the kiss as I said
" Everything will be alright god will guide you , I'm here for you . I will help you to achieve your dreams , don't worry sweetcake " I said as I kissed her forehead .

She nodded her head as she continued " My parents always used to say , we want to see you successful, we won't be pressuring you about marriage but they themselves won't feel a bit bad when they announce about the marriage .

I was devastated when I heard they wanted me to get married just because I was useless enough to stay at their house. I was so depressed I lost all my hope of studying further and everything .

I didn't know how I was going to complete my studies and all. And they knew how much I wanted to study but nevertheless they didn't listen .

They think I'm useless jungkook , useless enough to stay at their house . Because I didn't know how to cook , I only knew how to bake cakes , ramen , and coffee .

But I'm also human right. After that I didn't talk to them because my freedom just got snatched away. I only live once and I just wanted to make sure that once was enough but they just broke me . They break me to the core , and it's hard .

We had to forgive our parents too but it's hard to forgive sometimes .

I thought mom would protest about the marriage and everything to dad but she just didn't do anything , like am i not a good daughter ? Am I not enough for them , or to stay at their house ?

Parents are the ones who are supposed to make you feel the happiest but here when it's the real time to show their love and support they just l-left me broken .

Did they even realise that they've hurt me ? But nevertheless I said yes , I married thinking that I can't disrespect them nor I want to make them ashamed of me because that day I thought of running away but I didn't do it .

And that's why I've been ignoring them till today . I thought they'll feel the slightest bit of guilt and apologise but what they did was unbelievable .

I could never think that my life would turn out like this. I've already wanted to make them Proud and make them happy but look now d-dad hates me . He didn't want to talk to me , mom either .

It hurts j-jungkook it's hurt to know that your parents fucking hate you . I can't bear this pain , it's breaking me apart, I'm such a bad daughter jungkook. I am not a good person "

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Y'all she told him everything! I'm not crying I'm not crying .....
It feels so good after knowing she felt safe enough to share her feelings with him ........

What do you guys think will happen next ?

To be continued

Written by Ashscrievers ✨