The end where I begin

C h a p t e r 45

Lauren's POV

It's a week until Christmas now. Just a couple of days left of school, then Danny comes home and has the gig with the lads. Then I get a few days here before I leave for Edenbridge to be with my friends and family for the holidays. I do miss Danny a lot, but I know that it won't be the same when we meet again. We are not great right now and I'm still really confused but what can I do if I'm not even sure I want to see him right now even though I miss him a lot. 

Since we last talked I had tried to focus on everything else. I've been with my friends and talked to my friends back home. I've also started studying a bit as well just to get ahead again. Since the issues with Danny started I've really not had any motivation to study or do anything. I was far behind my schedule when it comes to just about everything. I had to try to study a lot, clean my apartment, and lastly; buy Christmas presents. The last thing on my mind had been the presents and I haven't even thought of what to buy. Well I'm sure most really don't care about the presents but I really want to give something they appreciate. Today I had planned to go Christmas shopping with Andi. She invited me to join her as she hadn't finished hers either and we hadn't talked in some time. I had just finished school and got changed quickly as I was meeting Andi outside a mall in 30 minutes and I had no idea how to get there. I knew I could always use Google Maps to find the place, but I didn't wanna take my chances so I just called a taxi to pick me up in about 15-20 minutes. That gave me just enough time to plan a few presents to buy. I took a piece of paper from one of my books and wrote down a list of people I was gonna buy presents for and then I had to write what to get them. My mom and dad never wanted anything as they already had everything. Once they came up with something they wanted my dad would always go out and buy it so there wasn't really a need for presents, but I decided to buy something for them anyways. I knew what my dad's favorite perfume is so I planned on finding that, and for my mom I would get her a wooly blanket or a nice knitted sweater as I knew she loved that. For my sisters I would buy clothes and for their children just some toys and a play book or something. And the lads, I had no idea. Maybe some fun stuff they can use while touring or something, and then there's Danny. What do you get for someone who has everything? I had tried to figure out what to get him for a while but I had no clue so I had to ask Andi today.

I had just finished getting ready as I spotted the taxi outside. I put on my jacket and shoes and took my wallet before closing and locking the door. I went out to the taxi and told the driver where to go. He nodded and drove away from my apartment to take me to the mall where I was meeting Andi. I don't think she would bring Sophie and Lyla today, but I wasn't sure. She said that it depended whether their father was home or not to watch them while she was out. They were great girls and I liked them a lot. They were energetic as my nephews and nieces as well but still different. And yeah I have nieces and nephews. One of my sisters has 3 kids, 2 girls and a boy and the other has 2 sons. The third is only a few years older than me and she doesn't have any kids. Well she doesn't like kids so she probably won't have any either. I don't really know as we barely speak. I don't like her very much, but the one with the 3 kids either. I've always had a strange relationship with my family, but I'm still here and I try my best to make it work even though I'm not comfortable around them that much. Moving to Dublin and being with Danny and being so welcome in his family has really helped me a lot. 

As soon as the taxi pulled up outside the mall I spotted Andi standing outside waiting. The girls weren't there today, but that's okay. That means more time for me and Andi to talk. We haven't really talked in a while, but I have a feeling she knows about all the things with me and Danny. He tells her everything and I admire that they have such a strong bond. 

'Hey I'm so glad we could do this.' I said as Andi pulled me in for a hug I gladly returned.

'Me too, it's been a while. How are ye now?'