The end where I begin

C h a p t e r 51

Lauren's POV

'You're sure you've remembered everything?' My mom asked as we had just gotten to the airport in London. I told her she didn't have to go in with me but of course she had to come with.

'Yeah I'm sure. Now I have to go.'

'Okay then. Goodbye, don't wait too long to come back again.' She said pulling me in for a hug which I returned.

'I'll try. Bye now.' I said as I took my two suitcases to the baggage check in. It was a small line so it went pretty fast. Only 30 minutes later I had also gotten through security clearance and found a place to sit down. I had about an hour left until my plane left for Dublin. I unlocked my phone and went to my camera roll and looked at the pictures from New Year's Eve. I found a really good one with me and Sophie on that I decided to put as my lock screen. I had really missed her. She came to Dublin for my birthday and it was really great. I couldn't wait until we saw each other again as we only had the chance to be together at New Year's Eve this time. I did wake up early today to go to her house to say goodbye before I left. Joanna and Cassidy had slept over there last night so they were there as well. I was invited to the sleepover too, but since I was leaving it wasn't really a good option. I really wanted to though. Well at least I got to say goodbye to my friends before I left the city for now. As I've said I was going to miss them a lot like I did the last time I left too, but I couldn't wait to get back to Dublin again. I could see Susana and Jules again and I was starting school where I would also see my friends I had gotten in some of my classes. We still talked from time to time, but not that much. We were friends all of us but not that close, more like school friends.

After I had ordered some food and something to drink I took out my phone again and went on Twitter. As usual I had some tweets and messages to look through. I think most people in the fan base really didn't care about Danny and I like they used to anymore. I got less messages and tweets and all that now, which was good. It took a lot of my time an energy. I replied to some of the messages as they were from my friends in the fan base. I had been really inactive lately, for obvious reasons. They were mostly asking me how I was and all that. I told them all I was fine and that things were good at the moment. I really didn't wanna say anything about Danny and I at the moment. I needed time for myself to figure it all out first. I guess Danny understood that somehow as he hasn't said anything either. People ask him daily how he is and each time he replies that he's fine but a bit tired. After a while scrolling through my timeline I sent out a tweet saying I was heading back to Dublin, bad move. Immediately some people asked why I wasn't already there. Just now I remembered that Danny tweeted a while back that we were spending New Year's Eve together and people knew that Danny had been in Dublin the whole time as he had said so. Yeah I was still checking his Twitter from time to time. I know it isn't really health or helpful but I couldn't help it. I still didn't know how to answer the people asking why I wasn't with Danny so I ignored them. I favorited some of the nice tweets that came in and closed the app shortly after. Then suddenly my phone buzzed in my hand. I had gotten a new text message. From Danny...

'New message from Danny: I saw yer going back to Dublin today. Any chance we could talk, pls? X' I sighed as I read the text. I really didn't feel like talking to him at all right now so I just ignored the text. It didn't take long until a new text came in.

'I'm going back on the road again tomorrow. I would like to talk to u before that. I really wanna fix this...'

Again I ignored the texts. I noticed that he only sent the texts via iMessage cause he knew that he could see when I had read the text. Well it was good for me too. Then he could see that I've read the text and that I'm ignoring him. Hopefully that would make him stop texting. He hadn't texted me much at all since I ended things. Maybe just a couple times really. I told him to leave me alone, but of course he couldn't so he still sent me texts saying he missed me and that he loved me. I ignored all of them. The truth is, I still love him and I miss him a lot, but I also hate him for what he did. I stood up from my seat at the eating area and went to buy myself a piece of cake while waiting for the boarding to start. It was still about 15 minutes until we could step on the plane so I still had plenty of time as the gate was only 100 meters away and the last call for boarding was in 40 minutes. Just as I had finished the cake another text from Danny came in.