The end where I begin

C h a p t e r 48

FLASHBACK

Lauren's POV

After walking, or nearly stumbling for about 15 minutes down the streets we found a place to go in. We opened the door and went inside. The girls looked around for a free table. I turned my head towards the bar and spotted a familiar face sitting at the bar. Danny was sitting there with a woman resting her hands on his thighs and his hands resting on each side of her hips as he was slowly leaning closer and closer so their lips were nearly touching. I felt a sting of pain in my chest immediately as I felt like I couldn't breathe anymore. He leaned in closer and closer until their lips touched. A glass came flying down from a table just next to where I was standing. He slowly pulled away and turned his head in my direction. Seconds later he spotted me standing in the bar looking at him in disbelief. He pushed the woman away immediately and stood up from the chair. Without thinking I left the bar as fast as possible with a broken heart and tears streaming down my face as I heard his voice calling my name in the far distance behind me.

I kept running and running towards my apartment. After a few minutes I couldn't hear anyone running after me anymore and I stopped to catch my breath as I was close to my apartment now. I wiped my tears as people were starting to stare weirdly at me. I took a deep breath as I continued walking towards my apartment building. I finally reached the apartment a few minutes later and laid down on the old duvet that was placed in front of the huge windows. As I was lying there tears streamed down my face and the pain in my chest grew bigger and bigger. I was just lying on the duvet crying my eyes out as I was looking out at the city I loved. Memories of all the times Danny and I would go out together here came back to me. I remembered the first time I was here, the weekend me and Danny got together. I was still in a relationship at that point, but I gave it up to take the chance on Danny. At that point it was the best thing I had ever done. Nothing made me feel better than finally having my one true love. He made me feel so safe and so happy. What we had was special and it would take a lot to break that, at least back then. After the summer it all flipped and it got harder. Much harder. I was unhappy and so was he, I just don't know why. Now I'm sitting here with a broken heart after the one person I trusted and loved did the most painful thing. To me this betrayal was worse than anything. I felt like I had failed him. Failed to prove to him that I loved him and wanted him. I had failed to give him what he wants and deserves. I know that all that has happened isn't all my fault, of course it isn't, but somehow I think that the reason why is because I can't make him as happy as he deserves to be. As I was thinking about all of this I kinda started to regret breaking up with Oscar back then. I knew that Danny and I would have a small chance of making it as we were in totally different stages in our lives, but what we felt for each other was so much stronger. We were blinded by love. I should have stuck with Oscar and kept Danny as a friend. I know that might be hard too, but it's better than to feel like this. Oscar and I were in the same place in life with the same ambitions and future plans. I was snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of my phone ringing. It had probably been doing that for the past half hour now but I didn't want to hear it so I probably ignored it until now. I slowly sat up and went to the couch where I had thrown my coat off in desperation. The phone was still ringing and I was praying to God it wasn't Danny. Well I don't know why I did that anyways as I wasn't going to talk to him, not now, not until I was ready to. I took the phone out of the pocket and looked at the ID. It was Jules. I wiped my tears away and cleared my throat before I picked up the phone.

'Laurs, where are you? You just ran off and then suddenly we see Danny running out after you!' Jules said in frustration. Well it was clear that both Susana and she had seen what had happened in the bar.