Believe in Me

Chapter 13

*Wednesday at 9:00am*

Anna's POV

I woke up next to my foster dad like usual in a bunch of pain with new bruises and cuts. Today was going to be a really hard day. I didn't want to sing the songs I choose, but at the same time I did. I can't explain how it feels to be on stage. I've been numb for so long now and I know as soon as I start singing all the emotions are going to come back. I'm scared. I'm going to Jake's today to get out of this house before the show tonight. I went and got ready and stuffed my blade in my pocket because I knew I was going to need it tonight. There was no way I'd make it through the night without cutting. As soon as I got done, Jake and his parents pulled up.

We just kind of hung out at his house until we had to leave. We were just talking and he brought up my performances for tonight. I had told him that I finally told Demi about the accident and I told him the songs I was singing. He couldn't actually watch me tonight because it was his grandpa's birthday and they were celebrating it. I understood because if I'd give anything to be able to celebrate another one of my papaw's birthdays with him. "You nervous for tonight?" He asked.

"Yeah, I always get nervous but I'm actually kind of scared this time. I just don't want to mess up and I want to make it special,"

"You'll do great. You always do!"

"Thanks, I wish you could be on stage with me. You always know how to calm me down and make me happy. It would be so much easier if you were up there with me,"

"I know, I'm really sorry I can't make it tonight Anna," 

"It's okay, I understand. Even if you could make it I don't think security would let you come up on stage," we both laughed and then it was time to leave. They dropped me off and I began warming up.

Demi's POV

It was about 5 hours before the show started and Anna was already there warming up and practicing. The contestants have to be there 3 hours before the show to go through makeup and stuff and to fit in some extra practice time. Anna was normally around an hour early, but this time she was even earlier. I knew she was really nervous about tonight. I mean I would be too if I were her. She had to learn three songs, she is singing with Leona Lewis, and the world is going to know about what happened to her biological family. I went and walked over to her. "Why are you so early?"

"I didn't have anything better to do so I'm here," I felt like she was still hiding something from me.

"Is everything okay?" I figured I'd try to get something out of her. I wasn't expecting it to work, but I gave it a shot.

"Yeah, everything's fine. I'm just a little nervous, that's all," Yep she was defiantly hiding something, but I didn't want to push it. It wasn't my business and she'd talk to me if she needed to...right? I let her go back to getting ready and I went back to my dressing room to get ready for the show. 

Anna's POV

I had gone through wardrobe and everything and now the show is starting. I'm the first one to go and the first song I have to sing is Hurt. I had finally gotten control back fully on my left side so I'd be playing piano in the beginning until the song gets big. They started playing the clip of me telling Demi about what happened and that was my cue to take my place on stage. When I sat down at the piano I glanced at Demi nervously. She gave me a reassuring look. I was so scared. I really wish Jake could be up here with me right now. It'd be so much easier. I got the cue to start playing so I did.

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes.

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again.
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh, whoa

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh, oh, oh.

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you