Believe in Me

Chapter 30

Anna's POV

Demi's been so nice to me. She never yells or gets mad at me like my mom used to. I guess it's because she doesn't know me well enough yet. When my mom figured out how messed up I was, when I was 8 she took me to a doctor who put me on antidepressants. She seemed to think that they would just magically fix me and everything would be fine. Of course they didn't and she ended up yelling at me all the time telling me I was faking it for attention and calling me crazy and stuff. She hadn't even found out about the cutting part. It was obvious that she pretty much hated me after that. Even my brother and sister turned against me. They were always the perfect kids who achieved everything and I was just kind of there. I don't want to do that to Demi, I don't want to be a disappointment to her. I made the decision last night after everything she did for me, that I would stop cutting and purging and I would try to get better so she wouldn't have to find out how messed up I am. It shouldn't be that hard, should it?

~~~~Time skip to 1 week later~~~~

This is harder than I thought. I've had so many urges and the only things that help are music and Demi. I'm so happy when I'm around Demi. She makes all my problems disappear. I don't want to bother her too much though so I try not to stay around her too much and annoy her. It's like she can read my mind because she can always tell when somethings wrong. She will always try and get me to talk about it, but of course I don't. She doesn't pry when I don't want to talk about things she just supports me. It's really nice having someone like that. When I'm not with her I'm either playing her piano, writing music, or listening to music. I've written so many songs this past week to try and distract myself. Some of them were depressing and others were... I guess you could say inspirational. It depended on what mood I was in. 

Demi's POV

The past week or so Anna's been really jumpy and anxious. I can't get her to tell me what's on her mind. She randomly get's really tense and clenches her fists. Whenever I ask her whats wrong she either says 'I don't wanna talk about it'; 'nothing'; or 'I don't know'. She's been playing the piano a lot more recently too. She's really good and I think they are all original songs. She will hum the melody, but wont sing the lyrics or let me see the lyrics still. I'm taking her to the recording studio today to record another song.

We both got ready and went to the studio. Anna has gotten more comfortable without her wig, but she avoids looking at herself in mirrors all the time. I have to remind her constantly that she's gorgeous. Her hair has just barely started to grow back. It's like a little stubble on her head. It's kind of cute. When she noticed it she came running to show me it and she was so exited. Anyway we just pulled into the recording studio parking lot. It would be just me and Anna in the recording booth today so what happened last time wouldn't happen. I hadn't heard the song she's recording today yet. We got in the studio and I helped her use the equipment to record the music part of it. I really like the sound of it so far. Once we got that done we started recording her voice. This time she didn't even get nervous or anything. She sang the whole song and I have to admit, it is really good! I can't believe a 13 year old wrote it by herself. I mean the first one was really good too, but I like this one better. It is a simple song, but it has a ton of meaning to it and I could tell she was really proud of it.

"You'll be okay

You'll be okay

The sun will rise

To better days

And change will come

It's on it's way

Just close your eyes

And let it rain

'Cause you're never alone