Believe in Me

Chapter 41

Demi's POV

I called her her main doctor yesterday and got Anna in for an appointment with a specialist for today. I really don't know how this is gonna turn out. I think I'm almost as nervous as Anna. Like seriously what are we gonna do if she caught something. There's still a small chance that she could be pregnant even... It's highly unlikely, but what if she is? What are we going to do then? 

I was snapped out of my thoughts by Anna stirring in my arms waking up. I told her about the appointment last night and I swear it took her hours to fall asleep. She just kept tossing and turning. When I would think she finally fell asleep she would jolt up a few minutes later in panic. I watched Anna as she stretched out and then turned back onto her side, facing me. I moved my head so I was just inches away from her face. When her eyes finally fluttered open smiled at her and said, "Good morning baby girl." Then I kissed her nose. She smiled and looked genuinely happy until the realization of what we were doing today came over her. Her face fell flat and I instantly knew what she was thinking about.

"D-do I-i have t-to g-g-go?" she stuttered out. I sighed and rested my hand on her cheek.

"I'm sorry baby girl, but yes," I said. A look of disappointment spread across her adorable face. "I'll make you a deal. If you go to the appointment for me, I'll let you skip breakfast and afterwards we can go to Skyzone if you're feeling up to it?" I questioned. She smiled a bit and then sighed.

"But what about my cuts?" she asked, looking ashamed. 

"Do they still hurt?" I asked. It had been a few days since the whole cutting incedent and she seemed like she wasn't in pain from it anymore.

"No," she said.

"Are you sure? Don't lie to me," I said sternly while raising an eyebrow.

"Yes Demi, I swear on your life!" she replied.

"Why'd you swear on my life?" I asked curiously.

"Because my life means nothing so it would be stupid to swear on my own life and you mean everything to me and millions of other people so if I swear on your life you know I'm not lying," she explained.

"Awh baby thank you, but your life means so, so, SO much more than you think. You are so talented and have so many possibilities in this world so never say your life means nothing, okay?" I said and she nodded her head avoiding eye contact with me. "Anyway, if you aren't still in pain I think you'll be fine to go to Skyzone," I said.

"But what about the doctor, won't he notice them?" she said nervously.

"Your doctor's a she since I figured you'd be more comfortable that way, and I don't know baby, let me see them," I said. By this point in our conversation both of us were sitting up with our backs against the headboard, but with our heads turned to face each other. Anna's breathing hitched and she shook her head. I took her hands in mine on her lap and adjusted myself so we were making eye contact. "Baby, I've already see them. I just want to check to see how much they've healed so we can find a way to keep the doctor from seeing them," I feel really bad hiding this stuff from doctors. I'm supposed to be responsible for her and she inflicted these upon herself under my watch, but if they find out she'd be sent to a treatment facility and it'd be all over the tabloids. She nodded and I watched her as she laid down on her back. Assuming that that was here way of telling me to go ahead I started with her stomach. Seeing the pink lines and scabs brought back so many memories and broke my heart. I kept a straight face so I wouldn't freak her out though. I studied her stomach for a while trying to figure out what to do about it. I couldn't cover it up with makeup because the doctor would most likely be pressing on her stomach some and she would notice it. The cuts don't even really look like self harm cuts now that I think about. Obviously I know they are, but I don't think anyone else would suspect it if I thought of an excuse to why she had cuts all over her stomach. "I'm just going to tell the doctor that you fell at a pool part running though the yard and the mulch from the flower bed scraped up your stomach," I said. She opened her mouth to say something but closed it and just nodded. "Can I see your legs now?" I asked gently. She took a deep breath and started to pull her pajama pants off. I helped her leaving her in her underwear and t-shirt. The ones on her legs were mostly just pink lines now so I went and got my makeup bag and covered them up with concealer. I did the same to her arms. She could wear a long sleeve shirt, but I covered them anyway just in case they had to take blood or something for some reason. Better safe than sorry right? "There you go. Now lets go get ready so we can leave," I said and got off the bed with her. We both grabbed clothes and changed in my bathroom. As you probably guessed I'm still not letting her out of my sight. After I got changed I put on some mascara and blush on then threw my hair up in a messy bun while Anna did her makeup. Once we were both ready I grabbed my keys and we left.

A/N

Sorry for the super short, boring, filer chapter. Its getting close to the end of the school year and I have a ton of huge tests and exams coming up along with a bunch of other stuff I have to do so I don't really have much time to write. I'm trying my best to find time to write, but for the next 5 weeks expect a very small amount of updates, if any... I know it's annoying when people who write fanfics take breaks and don't update so I'm sorry, but passing is kind of more important than this story right now. Oh and I got another idea for a fanfic so I started it. You can check it out if you want. I know it sounds a bit cliche but I'm gonna try to make it different from the other ones like it. Don't expect updates on that one either. Oh yeah, one more thing. Remember how I talked about Zoe and Lily some in past authors notes? Well Zoe is currently in a coma from a suicide attempt after Lily's death. They are turning off life support tomorrow if she doesn't wake up before then. Her boyfriend is currently running her Twitter account which is @ddlovatosmygal. Please pray for her and her boyfriend. Thanks, stay strong<3