Believe in Me

Chapter 50

A/N So I haven't updated this in forever and I have a some story lines I want to get to but don't know how to get to them so I'm just going to do a huge time skip. If I didn't I feel like there'd be a bunch of boring, useless chapters so yeah...

*Time skip 5 months*Demi's POV

These last few months have been crazy. I don't even know where to start. I explained what I had told Ellen to Nick and luckily he understood, but I could tell he was hurt. We agreed to take a break until I figured everything out. Well I figured it out really quick. I love Bella with all my heart and I couldn't picture being with anyone else. That's right we're officially together and the whole world knows about it. We starting dating 4 months ago. To be honest I was more nervous about telling Anna than I was about telling the whole world.

Flashback

I sat there twiddling my fingers nervously while I waited for Anna. I planned on asking Bella on a date, but I wanted to get permission from Anna first since she matters more than anyone else in my life. So many thoughts were running through my head.

What if she thinks it's weird?

What if she's against same sex couples?

What if she doesn't want to be fostered by me any more?

The thoughts disappeared when Anna came into the living room with her hair wrapped in a towel after just getting out of the shower. The rules for showers were now that the door had to be left open and I would have to check her wrist, ribs, hips, and any other place I might be suspicious of. She knew the drill so she came over to me and lifted her shirt up to right underneath her nonexistent boobs. There were no fresh cuts so I moved onto her hips, and then her wrists. There were no new cuts anywhere so I did what I always do. I pulled her onto my lap letting her cuddle me and I told her how proud I was of her. Even though I say it multiple times a day, it will never lose meaning. "Sweetie, can I talk to you?" I asked awkwardly.

"What's wrong?" she asked worried knowing that I usually don't ask permission to talk.

"Nothing, I- I uh- I just need to ask you about something," I stuttered. I could tell her anxiousness was now about as bad as mine.

"Uh yeah. Did I do something wrong?" she asked. I could see her eyes getting wet.

"No baby! I just don't know how to say this. I'm just scared that after I tell you you wont like me anymore and you'll want to leave and that I'll lose you. I don't think I could stand losing you," I rambled.

"Dem, calm down. You know I'll love you no matter what! Just tell me," she said our roles momentarily being reversed.

"I think I'm gay," I spit out not being able to look at Anna.

"I knew it! Oh my God! Yasss! Lovatics are going to go crazy!" she yelled. I totally forgot she was once a huge lovatic... well hopefully still is.

"Wait what? You're not mad?" I asked shocked.

"Um no? Why would I be mad?" she asked.

"I don't know, but don't EVER say yass again," I said trying to be serious, but I couldn't hide the joy I felt inside for long. 

"But you just said it," she said sassily. I was going to reply with a bitchy comment but I couldn't help but pull her into the tightest hug possible.

"God I love you so much!" I said with a face eating grin.

"I love you too, but I.need.air!" she said dramatically gasping for air. I loosened my grip on her and laughed. "So.... do you have a girlfriend?" she asked enthusiastically actually sounding like a little girl should at her age for once.