ABSTRACT THOUGHTS ⊳ TWILIGHT

04 | counting, embry call

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TITLE! ↴
— counting

CHARACTERS! ↴
— embry call x reader

WARNING! ↴
— depression. do not proceed if so
uncomfortable.

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How can someone so perfect be in the state of wreckage and devastation? How can someone so perfect lost her happy and enthusiastic self? And how can someone so perfect lost herself wandering and lost hope too?

Because for Embry, she is perfect the way she is and he will never look for somebody else. Not because the fact that she is his imprint but because she is too different from others and that's what he wanted the most. She was unique. No, she is unique.

Being different and never be embarrased about it. She was way too happy and enthusiastic before, her smiles were the brightest like stars and her eyes will give real emotions of what she's currently feeling. It was a galaxy and it was gorgeous.

But what if behind all that happiness, she's actually suffering from anxiety and depression? she hides it too good, maybe no one will believe her if she so admitted she was actually suffering from it. They knew her as a happy and free girl, but they have no idea of the depths of what she really feels.

She's always confused. She's confused as to why her parents died when she was just 8 months old and she was confused why everything seems so unfair even if it wasn't. She just wanted love from her real parents but how can she feel it when they're gone? she was just a foster kid and she never knew what her real mother or her father looks like at all.

Her foster parents gave her all she needed, and that was love. They knew it from the start that love is what she needed and wanted the most, she returned the feelings half-heartedly.

And now it's the middle of Summer in Forks, kids out playing with friends or family. More tourists to visit the beautiful viewing spots here or camping up the moutains and etcetera. But for her it was her time to mourn, she never left the house since then and she never used any of her mobile device. She stopped being happy and let darkness took over, and Embry wasn't happy.

He would sometimes look at her from her open window, and he would caught her blandly staring at the ceiling as if having a game with it but only she always lose. She was paler and skinnier than usual, her phone would ring because of the texts she had received from her friends, inviting her to parties that she was never interested in.

Nor did she ever wanted to meet with them, she wanted space and being in her room's safety is what she got. Her parents are worried sick, they knew she's always like this when Summer came but after 2 weeks left before class starts she becomes happy again as if nothing really happend.

It continued for 17 years and here she is, looking straight at the ceiling. Bombarded with lots of thoughts and debating if she would eat or not, she's too tired to get up anyways maybe some other time.

But Embry wouldn't like her ' other time ' so he took his action.

❝ [ name ]! Come on! let's buy food! ❞

crickets

❝ [ name ]! I'm hungry! ❞

❝ Well I'm not so go buy your food, don't bother me here.  ❞

ouch,

❝ ughhhh, but you haven't eaten anything yet! ❞

crickets

❝ if you're not coming with me, I'm literally gonna carry you from here going to that damn fast food restaurant! ❞

crickets

❝ I'm only counting to three [ name ]! ❞

silence

❝ one! ❞

you sighed,

❝ two ❞

pulling the pillow beside you, you then covered your face with the pillow.

❝ three! ❞

and he picked you up with ease, a shriek echoed throughout the empty house you live in.

❝ WHAT THE HELL, EMBRY?! PUT ME DOWN ASSHOLE! ❞

❝ when we get to the restaurant, yes? ❞

he chuckled to himself as you continue to try to get out from his strong grip and failing miserably, groaning due to your known failure you instead covered your face with your hair and tried to sleep as if that would shoo him away.

Though suddenly your eyes widened, air stuck in your throat and finally your hair was wept when he did so. Tears brimming your eyes when he said the very sentence that you now appreciated the most.

❝ You know you can always count on me, right? ❞