ABSTRACT THOUGHTS ⊳ TWILIGHT

08 | use, emmet cullen

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TITLE! ↴
— use

CHARACTERS! ↴
— emmett cullen x reader

NOTE! ↴
— the only imagine i have that is
in 1st Point of View geez and it's
cringe you guys so a little headsup !

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I loved him. I really did.

But the pain trail of memories he left, made me more fragile by second. Tears escaping with no doubt as it drops and drops until I felt myself numb.

Too numb.

That I thought I couldn't move, that I thought I was finally free and satisfied with myself. But it was all thoughts and I came back to reality, seeking for someone to help me through all of this pain.

For he used me and just for a game.

He used me as his rebound, so that he could forget Rosalie. I don't know if I should be angry at her, for coming back here in Forks and for getting back with Emmett. Actually, I don't really know what to do or even what to think.

Days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months. I finally chose to leave, my mother was pleased that I was going back home to England. Back there, I could finally forget him and thinking that he's not breathing the same air as mine then that would be fine.

But really, I think I was the stupid one to fall in love with him. I never knew what he is or what he does, all I know is I thought I knew him even if I don't. I don't care about what his wants was, I just wanted to be with him and that's all to be honest.

But I guess I was the only one who was holding the relationship,

❝ Flight to England, open gates at 4:40 boarding in 20 minutes. I repeat, flight to England, open gates at 4:40 boarding in 20 minutes. Thank you. ❞

I sighed as I sat down reading an old book, only 20 minutes left and off I go.

What happened back in Forks had always made me teary eyed again, All I ever want to do is to go back so much to tell Bella that I'm supposed to be leaving. But for all I know, Emmett was there. Emmett is supposed to be there, and I can't do anything about it but to leave Bella a message for now. And I, too, know that she hasn't heard any news from me since the day when I caught Emmett and Rosalie making out in my house.

Typing down, slowly tears escaped my dull eyes,

hey bells, actually i'm leaving. 20 minutes left and im boarding to England, sorry I couldn't tell you in person i'll come back soon.

xx

Lies. I already promised myself to never return in this painful place, a painful place that held too many painful memories and to think — that this place is way too small for me. . For I to even delve on,

❝ Stay ❞ his voice.

I think my heart stopped beating.

❝ Please ❞

Turning my mobile device off, I glanced at the clock spared. Only 16 minutes, [ name ]. He'll leave soon.

❝ Leave me alone. ❞

❝ I don't want to. Just please stay, ❞

❝ Then dont leave, because I'll be the one who's going to. ❞ You angrily said, clutching at your bag. Slightly praying for him to leave.

❝ I'm letting you stay, [ name ]. For me, ❞ his voice cracked, oh I thought he was fine.

❝ You cheated. I'm just your rebound, just forget everything we've done Emmett. It's no big deal, everything between us was just a mistake. You have to go.  ❞ It hurts too much to say that, but you wanted to tear him apart like how he did with your already broken heart.

You looked at him, his eyes were bloodshot and his hands are clenched to fists. You don't care.

❝ Rosalie and I. . She seduced me. ❞

❝ Of course you would accept the invitation and get to my bed. ❞

❝ please just stay. ❞

I sighed, why the hell wouldn't he shut up and just leave? ugh.

❝ Flight to England, now boarding, open gates at gate 4. I repeat, flight to England, now boarding, open gates at gate 4. ❞

You stood up from your seat but he didn't let you go that easily,

❝ [ name ], I'm letting you go if you take 5 steps away from me. You will forget me but I will never forget you. ❞

1st step, why does it hurt?

2nd step, walk further you can do it.

3rd step, if I turn around and hug him, will it hurt me more?

4th, of course it would.

5th, you sighed as you nodded to your beautiful yet hurtful success. You heard him sigh, feeling the breath he led out on your shoulder

❝ I'll be waiting for you. For years and years and on and I will never stop. I made my mistake and I hate myself for doing it. I love you and I will always will, but for now I'm letting you go. Only for now, because I might go after you and claim you back, princess. take care. ❞

Tears slipped out from your eyes as you continue on walking, further and further from his cold touch. I hope I'll be back soon.

❛ melting through the cracks in my hands,
I guess I held on for too long. ❜