so hey sorry about last nights update and that it was so short and there was a reason for that
for the most part i'll be keeping the reason why jesse wanted to kill himself that night for privacy reasons and i feel like he wouldn't want me to share it around
so basically i got to 260 reasons before he came back, keep in mind this was full out reasons and shit that took me a little while to type
i typed those reasons for about 2 and a half hours
i think i started around 9 and ended off on 11:30
like here i'll type one here that i listed, "203- jesse you are the reason why i'm going to stay up all night, i don't care if i'll pass out at this point and i don't care that i have to be up tomorrow morning early, because this means the most to me and you mean the most to me"
or i think the point where noticed i really wasn't going to stop was number 100
oh and the reason why it says like "jesse you are ..." and not things like "who will..." because at one point in the early stage he's like "not me" AND ME AND OLIVIA ARE LIKE "BITCH YOU ARE THE ANSWERS TO ALL OF THESE"
anyways, here's number 100, "100- jesse the reason why i'm writing these is to prove to you how much i care about you no matter how many times you tell me that you don't believe, and that i will break down if you simply leave, i love you so much as a person and i would die watching you go away, so please don't do this to me"
hah so people had to mute the gc because i put the first 202 in the main gc and then i switched to his dms because some people were lagging and i was like shit
but then again i was really the only one listing reasons, most people didn't know what was going on because they couldn't find what we were talking about because i spammed the chat too much
anyways last night was fairly emotional for me
but he told me he hasn't going to because of reasons i won't share and basically i made him promise me time and time again that he wouldn't
and so around 12:30 ish finally i was like, well since everything is okay now i'm going to head to sleep so i don't die at conditioning tomorrow morning, and how i end off every conversation before i go to bed with people in the gc is "spam me if you need me, okay?"
yeah, anywyas i woke up and he was still awake which i was slightly concerned because he is 3 hours behind us so like i was up around 6:30 ish which means he was still up around 3:30
and i basically talked to him until i had to go to training
and then so at training the trainer told me i probably sprained my ankle so that's a thing
uh yeah, let's see after that i kind of hung around at the house and decided to start literally a 9 hour video on youtube
it's about the designing of a video game and how they planned it
it was for detriot become human
for anyone wondering
anywho around maybe 12 ish me and jesse played ow together and then around 3:30 ish lu and our other friend joined
then i like sprinted out of the house at 4:15
and this pizza guy shows up and we are like ????
we didn't order pizza
and i was gonna be late to practice so i was in the garage waiting for my mom to pick me up
and so you know i danced to pass time for literally a second and my sister got that on film so that's a thing as well
anywho from 4:30 to 7 ish we had training again
then we had dinner
and basically i spent the rest of the night continuing the video
here i am now, for once something isn't going on the gc
i think it's mostly just me and olivia being exhausted from last night and then everyone else is mostly in different time zones
so yeah boys that was the craziness
oh
here's a song recommendation
it's a slower song but it's something me and jesse really like it's
even if we try by night beds
yeah, anywho that's it for tonight
caio
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here's the reason ^
yo i just realized how much i fucked up on 99 like i can't even comprehend that
qotd- what is the most recent song you've listened to?
