Only You (J-Hope x Reader)

Sorry

My dad cried for me, and I was there to comfort him. He wiped the tears away, and straightened himself. Then he started eating, "You know, I would cry whenever I wasn't able to see you. Oddly enough, crying while eating made my food taste slightly better. I don't know why." I couldn't help but giggle at his random sentence, it was so out of the blue. "I've never cried while eating, maybe I should try it one day," I joked. My dad looked up and smiled at me. "Was it difficult for you to not have any friends by your side for all those years?" he asked. I nodded, "It was extremely hard, and unbearable at times. Seeing all those people (happily) with their friends, as I was left alone in the classroom studying the same material over and over again. I even excelled in school, because I was learning too much material since I had so much free time... but that wasn't such a bad thing. Sometimes it was hard because I was lonely and had no one to talk to. No one to ever trust, because I was scared. But it had it's positives, I had less distractions and I could focus on my education. Plus, not having any friends helped me watch others around me. I got to analyze people and their action that soon allowed me picked up this really great ability to tell between things, like if someone's actions is fake or real. I guess you can say that it was both something I loved and hated." "I'm curious, how did you push through?" he asked. My dad was now interested in my life. I wondered why, maybe it was because some people give up after not having any friends. "Well... I had this one friend that I trusted ever since the day I decided to be lonely. It wasn't a real person, and it's still here for me till this day. Although I haven't gone for it's comfort for a long time, I know that it's always wanting to pull me into an embrace," I started.

My dad seemed interested in this friend. It was a friend I was mentioning when I said I had no friends at all until college. "Nature was my friend that helped me all those years. I could hear it speaking to me- I know it sounds weird, but it comforted me when I needed it. I knew that nature would never betray me, that it'll always be there by my side when I needed, and I knew that it was there to help me. Even after all those years of being lonely, just sitting in the soft breeze as I listened to the rustling of leaves, and felt the sun gently shining on me, it made me feel comfortable and relaxed," I continued. "It was my only friend back then. I would restrain myself from everyone because, like I said, I couldn't trust anyone at the time. Oddly enough, it had the same feelings as me at times. Whenever I would cry, it'll cry with me. The teardrops- raindrops would calm me down and help me fall asleep. It was like it really cared for me, even if it might have been a coincidence," I said. "So you found that nature was something that calmed you down so you stuck with it," my dad summarized, and I nodded. "Speaking of friends, who broke that lock and entered?" he asked. For a second, I thought back to my college years and couldn't help but smile. "It's a guy who was so persistent it was kind of annoying. He would follow me at times, and try to talk to me. Although I pushed him away multiple times, he was able to come back," I said. "You seem quite fond of this guy, do you have a crush on him?" my dad asked. "I did," I answered, "What happened?" he asked. "Well, I'm dating him now-" he immediately interrupted me. "You're not single?" he seemed happy to know that. I smiled and nodded, "We've been together for a long time now. And I don't like him, I love him."

All I saw was a happy smile on my dad's face, my words brightened his expression. Even after hearing about my past, he was so happy to hear about my current life. "Whenever I was with him, I wanted to know more and more about him. I couldn't help but take interest, he was someone from out of this world. Like a sun, he was my sunshine. He helped shine some light into my life. Completely changing me, and I couldn't help but think 'Only For You will I do this'. It was sort of a weird feeling back then, but I'm so glad that I met him and that we worked so hard to be here," I said. "He opened up to me as well, he told me about his past. He didn't hesitate to tell me, and I'm grateful. I'm glad he told me things about him I didn't know about... I'm rambling, sorry," I quickly stopped talking. My dad seemed so interested though. It would make sense, he was learning about this daughte's life that he was never able to experience until now. "I'm glad that you're telling me all this. He sounds like a wonderful guy, and what you told me clearly proves that he never gave up on you. I believe that you'll be with him forever. I'm sure you guys will be happy... and I'm sure he won't do what I did when your mother had you. He sounds like a responsible guy. I would love to meet him one day," he smiled. "It's okay, dad. We have moments where we freak out and walk out. It wasn't right, true, but you said you worked hard to try to support me. This house is proof, is it not? Even if you left mom and me, you still worked hard to accomplish something to make us happy," I said. My dad slowly nodded. We had a moment of silence. "I'm sorry..." he was sad again, "I'm sorry that I wasn't there when you needed me. I don't think that apologizing will make me feel any better. But if I could, I want to keep telling you that I'm truly sorry for being a bad dad." This time, I was the one to get up and hug him.

"Don't be sorry..."

I hoped you enjoyed!
~XutieMiako