ace rants

Those very super extremely brain-scatteringly hot football boys

So, I'm playing field hockey, and the football team has the field after us. They all show up a few minutes early everyday because they're supposed to. But some of my friends are like, "gotta look cute for the football boys," and it's so annoying because no? You don't? 

But that's not really the thing

The thing is that when I came out to all of them, I said just keep acting like they did before (AKA still kinda thirsty). I'M NOT SAYING THAT'S BAD. I wanted to be treated like everyone else. I still do; that's why I didn't tell anyone at camp. 

Feeling normal is fun and all, but I also just don't want to hear it? It's not bad that my friends are thirsty, that's just normal high school girl stuff, and they are doing what I asked them to do anyway. I just get kind of disgusted by that.

I think the problem is that I want to be included, but I don't want to do what I'm being included in.

Do you guys have that too?