ace rants

I don't believe in sexual attraction.

I know quite a while ago I said that don't worry, even though I'm asexual, I still believe in sex. But honestly? No. I don't. Yes, I get it in theory. Evolution makes you see people and want to risk getting STDs, but actually like??????? How do people SEE someone and want to fuck?? Why do people want to the sex anyway???????????

I just. Do not believe sexual attraction.

Also my perception of sexual attraction is non-existent. I figured people in my grade were doing sex stuff not super often, but I didn't think it was exactly rare. But I have these two friends who have been dating for a little over a year, and one of them just gave the other a handjob for the first time, and everyones shocked?? I'm not friends with the most sexual people at school, but I assumed they'd already have done that. And my best friend got really excited because her bf kissed her cheek?? I don't see why everything's such a big deal, but everyone seems to understand all of it.

So yes. What the fuck is sex.