Hermitcraft S7 Shenanigans

midnight rambles

sorry this isnt exactly hermitcraft but its quite late and i need to just, vent, so sorry again guys

(warning: existential crisis incoming, some venting in general but i wont go into heavy topics)

-the fact that i dont watch hermticrat makes it difficult for me to write for it, and it's not even that i dont have the time it's just that... hermitcraft isnt that interesting to me?? even recap isnt that interesting if im honest so i really just collect all my info from tumblr (which is unfortunately super toxic)

-my experience with the hermitcraft fandom has been very different from others. Most fandoms i've been in are much smaller or have in general a really nice and family-like fandom. Hermitcraft is not like that. It was definitely a little... disappointing to see how toxic the fandom is but i've gotten a bit more used to it (and i in general try to keep all the discourse out of my life). I desperately wish for this fandom to be something like the Dan & Phil fandom, where it's like a family, or like Mini Ladd's fandom, where everyone just speaks the language of memes, but im thinking that it's never going to be like that. But that's okay, because ya'll on here are really the light i need in my life

-you ever wonder what other people's lives are like? I see the people who comment on my stuff and sometimes they reveal small bits of their personal life and it makes me just wonder what their life is like. I'm not telling ya'll to reveal that, it's just interesting to realize how much is going on outside of your own little bubble

-story time: i got sick and basically missed a week's worth of school (except one day) and then it turned to the weekend which means i have about a week's worth of homework to do that i still haven't done, it's 11 pm on sunday, i might have a project due tomorrow which i've barely even started on, mygod is this what being a teenager feels like?

-it's strange that of the people who i follow or like their content, there have been quite a few who have things like autism or sensory issues which is funny because a) i also have some sensory issues (loud noises like fireworks (which sucks bcs my bday is on jan 1), basically panic attacks from weirdly shaking videos, etc) and b) my brother is on the autism spectrum

-when writing for hermitcraft, there are things i would love to try and explore and write about like depression or anorexia just because it's interesting to write about them, but the community is already so fragile i feel that im really limited to what i can write?? like even the gore or angst that i write, if it's not an AU and just the regular hermits then im walking an extremely thin line

-my irl friends are so uncultured in terms of the internet, like one even teases me about going on tumblr because i guess it's an older website?? like, bitch what?? another friend told me about forgetting their computer at school and i responded with "F" (as you normally would) and they literally didnt know what the "F" meme is! sometimes i question why im still friends with them -.-'

-ugghhh im literally more open with ya'll than i am with anyone i know in real life (which i believe is the case for most online introverts, but still)

-i have this one friend at school (who we'll call Friend A) who is a big Grian and Mumbo fan (aka a very typical Grian fan) and unfortunately she is the only i know in real life who knows about hermitcraft which sucks because i try to tell her about how freaking awesome Doc's last episode was and she doesn't understand (i understand if she doesnt like his content but i still get a little frustrated) she also barely knows who Cub and Scar are and im like "bruh they're literally their biggest rivals"

-once i was trying to explain to a different friend (Friend B) and Friend A was rambling on about Grian and the Sahara boys and i added my own input occasionally of hermits i like. Anyways, I eventually mentioned Joe and was like "yeah Joe's really great too!" and Friend A goes "eh, not really" and i argue back "no, he's good!" and she just shrugs with a "myehh" and goes back to rambling about Sahara to Friend B. Now, normally i would be okay with this (seeing how in the past she has expressed her dislike of Python's voice being annoying and i was okay with that) but im kinda pissed because we were explaining it to a friend?? who didnt know about hermitcraft?? like if we were just talking on our own it'd be more okay, but to tell someone who has no clue who these people are that one person isn't good?? it kinda sucks and im still salty

-the warm water in my shower just kinda stopped being warm and i had to quickly rinse out my hella long hair then step out while literally shivering from hypothermia (i have never realized how warm towels are)

-im young compared to some of ya'll (im 13) but do you ever just hate adults in general?? i think a big problem with some adults (not all, some are good but some suck) is that they treat us like kids but then expect us to act old?? i especially hate this excuse from teachers, "you're in [insert grade number] now!" like, just because we're a year older does not mean that we're anymore mature, miss, we're still going to make 69 jokes and talk through your lessons

i made this just so ya'll could relate and we could talk or ya'll could talk with each other in the comments, please talk i love reading random conversations between strangers on the internet (that sounds creepy, whoops)