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Myra PoV
I should be frightened and petrified at the moment, but Rudra seems so composed right now, moments before he was so adamant to teach me a lesson, but now nothing, he made me sit on the bed and sat adjacent to me.
"Myra you cannot leave in the middle of the night, do you even comprehend I was so concerned about you, I recognize you are traumatized and angry but would you not even listen to my side of the story" he sounded desperate and unadulterated, I was just so lost in his deep eyes pleading me to stay
"You could have moved on, 11 years is an elongated time to hold grudges, I am extremely sorry for how I treated you, I was naïve and foolish, but I didn't deserve anything you did to me Rudra" I have made my mind I just can't forgive him after knowing the truth
"MOVE ON, it was not easy to move on, I had undergone rehabilitation for months, I suffered years with depression, anxiety, fucking nightmare, I stay locked in my room for days, I could not even look myself in the mirror, whenever I looked at myself, your face with disgust towards me came flashing every single time, those malicious hurtful words reverberated in my ears, you broke me so viciously" he is enraged right now
"I am sorry Rudra, I am really am, I would never think I could influence you this badly, I am truly ashamed and guilty" I was devastated on hearing what he been through because of me, what I have made this man.
"But Rudra that would never validate what you did to me? Revenge? Seriously Rudra" even if I want I would never forgive him for this.
"Woman for the last time I am saying I never did anything for vengeance" he pulls his hair in frustration
I got agitated by his constant denial "So why did you abused me, hit me and threatened my family, you don't do those things to people who you love"
"Call me bastard, Low life, anything for those things I did to you, but that was never backed with revenge, so better get that straight, one more time if I hear that, you would be responsible for my actions" he screams in frustration
"I am done with you, you would never learn or accept your mistake, I don't know how could I fall you, you manipulated me maybe" I stated and barged out of the room
Rudra pulls me harshly and grasps my neck "Think before you speak Myra, don't make the same mistakes you did years ago" he warns as he strangles me
"You have no right to lecture me on my mistake when you yourself never learned, I am tired of you, just leave me " for me nothing is making sense at the moment, the whole thing is making me lose my senses, I don't even apprehend what I am speaking as much as I love him at the same moment I yearn to generate remoteness among us
"Enough Myra" he coerces me to sit on the bed and locked the room
"You can't lock me like this, the instant its unlock, I will go away, again I am saying I am sorry Rudra for I did, but I can't stay with you anymore" I am mentally beyond tired
A loud sound echoed my ears as I consummate the sentence, Rudra had backhanded my face rigorously "I am done playing nice, you just don't understand, I fucking love you and I am sorry for what I did but I don't regret it because you would not marry me willingly, I wanted nothing but you, and now you are stuck with me" he stated and pressed me on the bed, I started to shed tears and howl under him and immediately covered my face to protect from more strikes when I saw his fist a centimeter away from my face, he pulls away from my hands from my face.
"Now you intend to punch me Rudra" I questioned, I looked straight into his furious eyes with my scared and teary eye.
"Why don't you understand Myra, I really love you, please stop this" he rubs his fingers softly on my battered face
"Please don't make me hurt you, I love you so much, I know you love me too, please let's make this work" he implored on his knees and placed his head on my lap
Please, please, please all I could hear for few minutes, his body started to shake, grief engulf me seeing him like this, he refuse to let me stir an inch, I felt moisture on my legs, he was crying, weeping on my laps, this broke me, can I give this relationship an opportunity? But this time was too emotional to make any decision
"Rudra, please calm down, I am here only, look up please" I softly run my fingers in his hairs and made him lookup
"Please don't cry, I can't see you like this" I sobbed looking at him so devastated
"You won't leave me, right? He questioned like a child whom I could not decline at the instant, my heart aches seeing him like this, I never wished such an effect on him, and this love is ruining us beyond repair, how did I ever got this power over him to fuck him up so bad
"No, now come up, it's midnight, sleep" I elongate my hand towards him
"You would go away when I sleep, I won't sleep then" my heart is shattering looking at him so vulnerable, he speaks like his whole life is reliant on me, I can't have him doting me in this manner
I shake my head disapproving of his words and adjusted him on the bed, and covered ourselves with the duvet, he was drained, I could see his eyes shut but he kept fighting to keep himself awake, I could interpret the terror, the fear that I might go again.
"Hold me and sleep Rudra, you need rest" I effaced distance between us and placed my hand on his shoulder, he placed soft kisses on cheeks and forehead, held me more proximate and he slumbered in the hope that our relationship would work.
I could not shut my eyes for a second, where has life bought us I wondered, from the beginning when we first meet we are hurting each other more than loving and cherishing each other, nothing is falling in place now, nothing feels right, love should liberate people, where in our case it is suffocating us, I don't wish to turn my love to hatred, whatever time and moments we shared happily I want to cherish them, going forward when I look back I wish to hold on blissful memorizes with Rudra, Rudra needs to realize what we have is beyond toxic, this is poisonous relationship which is altering our perception on everything, we both deserve better, we are not capable fixing each other, I can't wait and watch until this completely destroys us, this relationship is draining both of us, I am so scared to be alone, I would never know how to live a life without him, but I stay this would damage us both, I know I had to make him understand, this time I have to be strong enough to say goodbye and make him strong as well, so strong enough that I could hand him over the SEPERATION PAPER
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I laid on the bed, battered and bruised, waiting to lose my consciousness or waiting that he would come back to his senses......................
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