Dear future-us,
Why is it hard to get over with these feelings? For sure this will fade away as time goes by, but as of now I still feel something for you Lola. I still keep on writing you letters. I keep on wanting to receive a reply even though I know I shouldn't be waiting. And instead of being direct with you, I never ask you these questions. I never told you how I feel as of the moment. And by the time you are reading this, it is already a past feeling.
I dreamt of you telling me you love me. I felt bad realizing it was just a dream. In reality, you won't even message me. I really think I should give up, but I am still right here waiting for answers. I know I am just hurting myself on the process.
The game isn't over yet. And my patience is just being tested. Will I be patient enough to wait for your reply? Should I really wait? What if you never read my letters?
I'll be waiting till June. It's just a month away so it won't be that long. If I don't get a reply, and if you won't return chapter 4 by then, I will stop. I will probably send you the next batch of missives by August or who knows when.
Don't worry lola, I'm on the process of erasing feelings. Lisod lang jud kay friends man gud ta. Way sad kay gi buhat nga paasa moves or something nga maka hurt. If ever naay paasa ari nga storya, basin ako na. Kay ako biya'y ga sigeg papansin. Eventually nig undang nako, I hope di gihapon ka ma utro. Thank you for being patient with me. Pero kabalo gud ko nga naa nkay reservations and surely di nka mka open up nko.
I hope 2 years from now ako na sad ang kulit-kuliton and not the other way around.
Not ever yours,
-Krizia @24yearsold
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Inside Her Head S1
Non-FictionThe best way to keep a diary, is by making it public. Because secrets are best hidden on the most unexpected places... Or rather, pages. 😉 "You'll never hear my thoughts. You can only read them." -Krizia PS: Check out S2 if you enjoyed reading. 😊
