Dear Future-self,
I would just like to document this dream I had of Mellan. I just find it very weird. Kay ako mga damgo about niya kay mu padng jud sa pagka uyab or pakasal or something. It started I guess on early month of 2018 and up till now there would be times when I'd be having strange dreams about me and him. And it's just weird cause I don't even have feelings for him and I know he doesn't have any feelings for me either.
Ako una nahinumdoman nga damgo nko about niya was on early 2018. Naa daw mi sa mall adto tas buntis ko. Unya sa dihang siya ang amahan. Pero sadly nakuhaan daw ko.
Next na ako ma hinumdoman was naa mi sa barko, gabie na to, unya mura mig uyab na ambot. And I think we were going somewhere.
On someday in 2019, I also had a dream of him. We were in a church. I'm not sure if it was our wedding or we were attending a wedding. All I can remember is there was a wedding.
Tas next was 2019, kadtong naa mis isa ka island unya murag nag celebrate birthday sa amua anak. Which was so weird. I remember two kids, a boy and a girl.
Then 2019 pa gihapon when I dreamt of him coming here in Bicol to see me. Tas ana cya dungan nlng daw mig uli sa Bohol. Ka remember ko nagtapad jd mis plane adto. Murag ang dating kay gi sundo ko niya.
Then just today. Nag damgo na sad ko nga naa ko sa church nag tindog sa isa ka pew. Then taod2 mi abot daw na cya dako kaayog ngisi, sama nako. Unya gikuha daw niya ako kamot tas nag tapad mi nga ga holding hands. Then iya gi kissan ako isa ka kamot. Then ana ko "mu luhod na ta?". Then mi nod ra sad siya. Gadungan mig luhod. That was all I can remember.
I am writing this now because it's just so weird. I am aware that he has a girlfriend. And also that I really have no feelings for him. So the fact that I'm having these weird dreams of us being together is just insane.
To clarify some stuffs, dili ra cya ako nadamgohan nga lalake. I also had dreams of my other ex-crushes. Pero dili ngani ka severe akoa dreams about nila. It was always one sided, unlike this one.
Strange how it was like this. I did not even have deep feelings for the guy. So why am I dreaming of him as if he's my future husband?
Love,
-Krizia @23
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Inside Her Head S1
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