Flash ~ Glee One-Shots

The Children

Sebastian's POV

So I am cutting up my kids some fruit for breakfast and fix them some water in their sippy cups. My mom and dad walk down stairs. "Hey Bas your up early. Which is unusual. Especially since we said we would take over feeding them of the mornings when your home so you can have a break." My dad says. "Maybe he doesn't trust us. It isn't like we didn't have seven kids after him. I mean we did drop him a few times but other than that he is fine. Hell if anything it made him smarter." Mom says. "Mother! God can I not just take responsibility over my own children!" I exclaim getting frustrated. They look taken aback by that and I sigh. "Look I am not trying to snap. The Warblers have like turned against me after the steroids thinking I let Hunter do them. I have 3 major projects worth 30% of my grade each and one is in Criminal Psychology, one if in my anatomy class at Dalton, and the last one is in my law class with my stubborn ass teacher who thinks just because I am smarter than normal kids and I had my high school diploma at the age of 13 when I got repeatedly bumped up because I knew everything and that just because I am going through high school again because I have to seeing as I have to for the matter of I need the extra credit that I don't have any work in any of those classes and she can give me twice the amount she is giving other students. This woman is out to get me for no apparent reason. Anthony's bones still aren't forming and I have to take him back in 3 days to have a new cast placed on his legs after having to listen to them rebreak his bones to reset them. Amina is refusing to eat anything and the only way I can get nutrients into her body is through the flavored powders the doctors give me to put in her water for her to drink until they can figure out why she won't eat. While Amelia and Andrew are doing perfectly fine and Amelia is crawling while Andrew is saying his first words. I have still yet to tell Clarington about these kids since I mean they are his yet I can't bring myself to it. I am still dealing with the trauma of the wreck. I am barely able to stand when needed because I am still unsteady. Everyday I want to relapse. But what if I cut to deep, what if nobody finds me to stop me, what if I can't stop myself. These kids need me. But that has been the only thing keeping me from relapsing. But it isn't working anymore! I want so bad to cut right now and I can barely resist the urge." I say. "I can't hide the kids anymore. When we get back from Spring break the Dean is out of places to put Hunter because of the new dorm arrangement. She has to room him with me because I am the only student left his age with a single dorm. Yes I get Hunter is better and the steroids are out of the situation now but what if. All of these what if's are going through my mind and I can't stop them." I say. The two hug me and I let them as I break down sobbing as everything gets the better of me. 

**Fast forward to the day school lets back in**

I am on the lacrosse field with the coach and he is helping me. "Easy Sebastian. You were in a major wreck only 7 months ago. It is a miracle you are even standing. We don't want you to strain yourself." He says as I collapse. "I know ok. I know. Just everything is getting to much. And the Warblers hate me so I don't have any of them to take my mind off of anything and t-then I can't play lacrosse because my body won't let me so there goes the other thing to distract me. The Dean made me Captain of the Warblers again after Hunter and I don't know anymore. This is my senior year. I just started into my senior year. And everything is already so hard." I say. He places a hand on my back. "What is rule number one I first taught you when you were 7 and saw my boys playing and you wanted to so we taught you." He says. "Never give up." I say. He helps me up. "If it makes you feel better Hunter won't be back until Wednesday. So you have today, tomorrow, and Tuesday." He says. I nod and go shower seeing as the kids are in the daycare part of Dalton where they watch the kids that the students have during the day and give them back at night. I get ready in my Blazer but I had to take it back off. I am just in a pair of sweats and a hoodie and I walk down the halls and bump into the Dean. "Oh sorry Sebastian! Why are you not in your blazer young man." She says sternly pointing at me and I lower my head ashamed. "Sorry ma'am. I can go change if you would like. I just couldn't put it on yet. Brought back to many memories seeing as one of my Blazers is what I was wearing when I wrecked. Just wasn't ready yet. But I promise I will have it on for class tomorrow." I say. She hugs e shocking me but I hug back. "It's fine honey. I'll give you a deal. Anytime it brings back to many bad memories I will allow you specifically to not wear your Blazer. Just stop by my office of the morning and let me know." She says smiling and I nod. "How are you doing hon." She asks. "I'm fine." I say lying through my teeth. "Ah I see. We are playing this ring around the rosie game again. Alright well have a nice day." She says. I walk to the commons room putting my hands in my hoodie pocket. I bump into a certain blonde. "Bassy. Your walking without crutches and everything now!" He says shocked. "Yeah. Mad a fast recovery I guess. Look I have to...." I go to say but he chuckles. "Go to the commons room. I know. Despite how mad they may be at me I know you didn't let Hunter do the steroids and I know the full truth. I came to find you and bring our captain back to the commons room." He says. He wraps his arms around my shoulders in a tight grip and starts dragging me. "Hey now I did not agree to this! I said I would go on my own terms!" I say. "Not gonna happen Bassy!" He says smiling. "You better know you are lucky that I have a soft spot for you! You are one of the few people who can break my mean mask!" I say as he continues to drag me to the commons room. when we get outside the doors I stop. He tries to pull me but I dig me feet into the floor. "Stop it and everyone will hopefully play nice and not piss you off." He says pulling harder and I slip and tumble forward some but catch myself on him. "I hate you. I am really regretting my decision of not making a run for it the second I bumped into you." I say walking over to a corner and sitting. "Smythe what are you doing over there." Nick says. "Just because I am your captain doesn't mean that I have to participate. You guys just have to be in my supervision." I say curling up into a ball. "Weirdo. We won't bite your head off if... Wait never mind I know why your in the corner. Stay there as long as you need." Trent says. At least one of them understands. Thad walks over. "Last night I got a call. I was here at Dalton early since my parents wanted rid of me. You were here to. Well then Dr. Davis called me and told me you passed out in lacrosse from not eating. Saying that you were in the medical wing still unconscious. Do you not remember me taking you back to your dorm last night. Listen here Sebastian. Your 'I'm Fine' bullshit doesn't work on me and it doesn't work on Wes either. He is coming by today and by the way you look like you have been ran over by a bus I suggest you prepare yourself to either tell him how you actually feel or you get ready for a damn long ass lecture. Now would you like to explain to me why we have up and decided to oh I don't know starve ourselves." He says bending down in front of me. I shake my head not wanting to go into detail. "Would you prefer I tell Wes about your little incident 9 months ago when I found you bloody on your bathroom floor!" He says. I immediately slap my hand over his mouth. "Don't you dare go that far Harwood. I will let you win this one but if you tell Wes my parents will find out. If they find out I am bound to be sent to another therapist. If I go to another therapist I am more likely than not bound to end up in a mental hospital. I am not mentally insane but if I am locked in a mental facility I will go insane. You have got to remember. If I go to a mental facility it goes on my permanent record. Meaning I lose my whole future. I sure as hell ain't letting it go to waist. Not only that but I have four children to care for. If someone was to read my record and happen to see I was in a mental hospital they could go 'Oh he is an unfit father' and have me reported and I would lose my children. I am not ready to let go yet. I have became attached and nearly killed a person when they tried to take my child. Never thought I would have the father like nature in me well screw that. But if you must know the truth as to why I stopped eating think about who I am Harwood. I am a Smythe. I have a public appearance to uphold and if I do not fit those standards do you know what could happen to my family name. Hell the family name is already tainted by me. A gay slut who got knocked up from what was supposed to be a fucking one night stand, who assaulted a so called 'friend'. You got to think. If I was to let anything slip about Hunter being the father of the children imagine what this will look like on his family name. It may not be big like Smythe but it still upholds some popularity especially in the U.S military. If I was to accidently let something slip his whole family name goes down in flames. If it does I will have his parents wrath and rage at me for it and it is unknown of what this could cause to the Smythe family name. Or Hunter. I know what it is like to have to deal with media and everything. I know that nobody knows about his sexuality other than us. I was the first one to find out because I really saw the broken boy behind the fake confidence in his eyes. I did it because of something someone told me. But I have to uphold this public figure. Skinny, smart, confident, straight, perfect, a strong leader. But I am weak. I am pathetic. I am fat. How do you think I lost all the weight after the pregnancy. Because of the public. Because I didn't fit the right public figure. How can I though. How can I when I can't even look into a mirror anymore. How can I when I hate myself so much. Everyday I question myself. It is so hard." I say letting the tears flow and now I just have my hand gripping Thad's arm. "Everyone out. Someone needs to talk to him." Jeff says and everyone leaves and I look up to see Hunter. I grip tighter to Thad as memories come flooding back. "I'll be right outside those doors if you need me." He says and I nod. "Hurt him Clarington I will kill you. He is in his most vulnerable state right now. So if he cries at something just shut up and hug him." Thad says glaring at Hunter and leaving. Hunter walks over and sets in front of me. He grabs my hand. Causing me to look up. "How much of that did you hear." I say. "All of it." He says. "I thought you weren't supposed to be back until Wednesday." I say. "I wasn't. But then my parents decided they wanted to see Dalton and the Dean told them to be here by today and they could stay in one of the old teachers classrooms till they head back out." He says. "Hunter look..." I go to say but he cuts me off by kissing me and I kiss back. Surprised but I do kiss back. A moment later we break apart for air. "I've been waiting awhile to do that." He says. I smile playing with my rings. "So I have four children I never knew about." He says and I chuckle. "Yeah pretty much. There was a reason I never came and visited you in rehab. Because if I did I would give it away. And just I couldn't do that to you. Hell one reason I never worried that much about having one night stands and one of us not being careful was because I was told I could never have children. So the sheer fact that I fell pregnant was a shocker for one and two it was an even bigger shocker when I found out I conceived quads naturally. Did you know I never told my parents I was gay until they found out on their own. It was around when I first found out I was pregnant. Because I had been sick the past 2 weeks, I was light headed, got constant headaches, and my bump was already showing. I had passed it off as I was sick and I had just gained some damn weight. But I decided just to be careful that I would take a test and hope and pray it didn't come back positive. It was. I mean yeah there was a part of me that was excited if I was because I mean I was told I could never have children. But I had a panic attack and couldn't calm myself down. At this point Jeff was staying in my room because he was the only one who knew I didn't just let you take the steroids and that I tried to stop you and I wasn't doing so well with my best friend being gone. I blamed myself. And the rumors didn't help. I passed out. And Jeff came into the dorm room with Wes going to try and have him talk to me. But they found me passed out on the floor and I had hit my head. Turns out it wasn't just a panic attack. I had a stroke. So they called an ambulance and I was rushed to the hospital. When I woke up Jeff, Wes, my parents, and my doctor was in the room. Well this is when my parents found out I was gay." I say