Flash ~ Glee One-Shots

AN

Hey guys I wanted to let you in on a little secret. A lot of my stories have it to where Sebastian hates his body or at one point has hated his body in the past. Well that is because it is based off of my true personal feelings about myself. I have always hated myself and my body. I supposedly gained 50 pounds since 2019 and am over weight for my age. I nearly broke down in the damn doctors office because I hate myself enough and didn't want to set there and listen to her talk about me being over weight. I know I'm fat already. I hate how I look in general. Not just my weight. I hate my hair, I hate my face, I hate my fucking stretch marks, I hate my glasses, I hate my weight, I hate my everything pretty much. On the internet you see these pretty girls with this beautiful face, perfect body, perfect smile, perfect voice, has so many friends. Then you think, well why can't I be like her. I feel like I am unwanted by everyone at school and last night I broke down in my mothers arms crying my fucking eyes out and going on about how I hate myself. I only have one really good friend. She is the only person I trust enough to talk about things like this to so opening up on here is tuff. But I needed a place to rant so why the fuck not. My grandparents on my fathers side have absolutely destroyed me. Mentally and physically. I eat a lot and I guess it is a way of coping. It makes me think, I know a lot of people have eating disorders to where they stop eating but what about the ones where people over eat? What if I have one of those. But I would never say anything to anyone in my family. Sometimes I feel really alone and sometimes I will burst out crying when I am writing my one-shots because in the happy ones I write I feel jealous of what I pretend they have in them. I guess I am writing what I want in life you know. Sorry this is so long. I never intended for it to be this long. Sorry guys I just needed to rant. To the ones who read this, thank you.