Flash ~ Glee One-Shots

The Cell

(POV: After the team locked Barry in the cell and Zoom took both Joe and Cisco, Barry snaps. He finally starts talking about everything that bothered him. But Zoom had ran into the Cortex with Cisco and Joe and they all were listening to it.)

Caitlin's POV

As we all came back from the mission that we desperately failed we all check the security cameras and we see Barry crying. I feel awful for leaving him in there. Cisco had a breakdown after doing it when we shut the door. "You know I'm claustrophobic. I hate tight spaces. Not all tight spaces but my speed doesn't help anymore. Because I can't sit still for to long without getting anxious and having this big urge to use my speed. But I can't really move around in this tiny cell. Is this what it feels like for all the meta humans we lock down here. Because if so I feel terrible now." Barry says. Zoom speeds in with Cisco and Joe in his grip. He pulls his mask off. We are all to concentrated on Barry right now to focus on Zoom or to do anything to him. He is watching as well. "Here recently I have been telling everyone I'm fine but I'm not really fine at all. I don't even know who the fuck I am talking to. You all are probably out celebrating taking down Zoom and have probably forgot I am in here. But I might as well just get this all out now. Since your not here it won't matter. Here recently I have relapsed greatly. It truly suck honestly you know because for awhile I was doing so much better and as so happy but Zoom had to show up and destroy that. I was finally in a happy place in life again and thanks to one person it was all down the drain. All the progress I made died right in front of me and I could not do a single thing to stop it. While only Cisco, Caitlin and Joe know, I have suffered from depression and anxiety since before I was 11. That night didn't start it but it did make it worse. Yeah. I know. I'm a freak. And if I'm being honest it wasn't just Zoom's fault that I have relapsed. Here recently online there has been a ton of hate on the web towards Sebastian Smythe which is my real name. I had modeled a line of clothing for a really good friend of me and I felt confident about it until people started hating on me and the people who do support me were going at them on all platforms and started a war. And I was stuck in crossfire taking all the bullets and arrows and blasts. Each one for a separate insult. Like 'Gay sluts like you should rot in hell!' or 'Your a stupid, worthless, ugly, fat, disgusting, cold hearted bitch!' and that second one stings the most because those are things I already think of myself. Even though me and Kurt are close now and I fixed things with both him and Blaine, when Kurt mentions the slushy incident, trauma I thought I left in the past reappears. Even if he is just joking. It still hurts ya know. But I pretend it didn't bother me and move on. Sebastian Smythe is known to the public as the local spoiled bratty bitch of Ohio. The monster. Hell my whole family is considered cold heartless bitches. It hurts so bad. And I have tried to leave that part of my behind but I can't. I tried so many times. Poor Cisco doesn't deserve this torture. I am a train wreck and he is being pulled down with me." Barry says. Everyone has tears in their eyes. He starts making hand motions with his hands. "Home. A place where I can go. To take this off my shoulders. Someone take me home." He says. I look to Cisco. "Every friend he has, he has a special hand motion for them that is based off their personalities and interests. He did the ones for his parents and siblings. The hand motion where he placed his hand to his ear represents his little sister who is an assistant. The typing motion represents his step dad who is great at hacking and taught Barry everything he knows. The writing motion represents his father who is a lawyer. The fighting motion represents his step mother seeing as she taught him most of his martial arts skills. The smirk and flipping someone off is the motion that represents his mother who taught him how to be snarky and confident but at the same time kind and nice. Pretty much how to control it. The hand over the heart to his lips represents his eldest sister who unfortunately died when she donated her heart to Barry. The salute represents his little brother who went into the military. The goggles motion is for ahis twin sister who he used to swim with all the time and do tricks with in the water. The cross-eyed motion is for his little brother who has Epilepsy and they always goof off with each other. His little sister's motion is the hand over the heart then like he is slitting his throat because they always tell each other 'Cross my heart and hope to die' whenever they tell each other a secret." Cisco explains. Awww. He misses his family. "Ya know I may want to kill Zoom but I don't know if I can. Like yeah he killed Henry in front of me and that hurt like hell but it was nothing compared to Hydra. Hydra is the agency that took me when I was only 19. I had just finished up my normal college classes and finished up law school and med school early. My life was going great. I was in a happy relationship with a man. No offense to Cisco of course. I love the man with everything in me alright. But I was engaged to a man of the name Hunter Clarington. Hydra took me and when I refused to cooperate they hit him since they took him as well. On one mission I refused to do something and the serum they controlled us with was wearing off. They kept threatening to kill Hunter when I got back to the base and wouldn't go back out and I didn't think they actually would! But no! My stubborn ass got him shot in the head! I still vividly remember his body falling into my arms....All the blood on my hands, begging for him to open his eyes....Begging for him to wake up..... You know they were never meant to shoot him..... It was against their orders to..... And their boss shot the person who shot Hunter..... Sometimes I want to run back in time and save him but I am happy with Cisco now. So so happy. He has made me a better person. With his silliness and stupid jokes. He has made me a better person. He healed what was broken. When I first met him I had been away from Hydra for 3 months and Hunter had been dead for 3 years. We had bumped into each other and were ironically having an interview for a spot on the Star Labs team for the Accelerator and it was for an Engineering spot for both of us ironically. I was trying to be the lead engineer while Cisco wanted to me a other engineer because and I quote 'If this thing blows up I ain't having the blame all on me' and that hits different now. I was broken, destroyed mentally and had scars and injuries all over my body steal healing. My depression was awful and so was my anxiety. For some reason he made me feel safe. And I slowly felt myself falling for him. But I guess I waited so long to tell him because I was nervous the Hunter thing would start all over again. Please if your watching this let me out. I'm in pain and I need my family. I feel like I'm going to puke and I would rather not puke in the cell. I just want someone to hold me and tell me it will be alright. I promise I'm not mad. I know you were doing it for my own good. I just want out of this damn cell. Please..." Barry begs. Zoom speeds away with Cisco and Joe again. I run down to the pipeline with the others and open the door to see Barry curled up in a tight ball. I run over to him and gently shake him. "I'm so sorry." I say. He wraps his arms around me and starts crying into my neck. He never wanted to kill Zoom. He wanted comfort from his family and we locked him in a cell. I hold him tightly. "Shh. I'm here. It's alright. I promise. Let it out." I whisper soothingly into his ear. I help him stand after awhile and we head to the med bay. He is freezing. I start checking him over while he is laying back on the bed. "You couldn't have known my body temperature would drop this low Cait. Nobody could. I didn't." Barry says making me jump since he hasn't said a word till now. I smile. "Always trying to make people feel better huh Bartholomew or should I say Sebastian." I say. He snorts. "Alright your body temperature seems to be warming up quick now that your speed is kicking back into gear. The IV is helping with the low glucose in your body. Along with the other helping with the dehydration. You seem to be fine." I explain jotting it down on the chart. I put it into the folder but pause. "What do I name this one. Normally I name each file off the meta but this...." I say but he cuts me off. "The cell. Call it the cell. Oh yeah I found a pet rock in my pocket and it's name is now Joey." He says. You can tell the pain meds I gave him are starting to kick in. I am laughing my ass off though about Joey now.

**Fast Forward to after the race and Barry created the time remnant to fight Zoom whiloe he did the thing on the thingy Zoom was using.**

As Barry runs back down after destroying it he is out of breath. "How am I still alive. Oh shit that was kinda fun. Nope now I gotta puke." He says running to a bush and puking up whatever the hell he ate. Oh that looks painful. He walks back over and wipes his mouth. "So where is Joey." I ask laughing. He flips me off while guzzling the water I reach him making me laugh more. "Fuck you Snow. I was lonely and found him on the floor. Leave Joey alone. What did he ever do to you." He says. We all start to walk back to the van. "Who did you find on the floor... Who's Joey." Cisco says. "Don't question it." Me and Barry say at the same time. Barry latches hands with Cisco and you can see in his eyes that he is frightened but happy at the same time to have his lover back. I mean I would be to. We all head back to Joe's place and Barry speeds and changes out of his suit into some sweats and a t-shirt. He reaches Cisco some fresh clothes which the boy gladly takes and he goes to change and so does Joe.