Rogue Wars Online

Chapter Fifty-Nine: Reflect Thy Sins

-chapter fifty-nine-

FINN

"Wes! Let go!"

Pilit kong binabawi ang kamay kong hinihila niya. The once beautiful sea and calming trees are starting to colour gray, with red spots in various area. Kahit saan ako tumingin hindi nawawala sa isipan ko ang pagsaksak ng dagger kay Depore.

That was because of me.

Again.

"No." matigas niyang tugon at hinigpitan ang hawak sa kamay ko. "Hindi kita papakawalan dahil babalik ka do'n sa kanila."

"Deserves an explanation!" itinuro ko ang sarili. "Need to explain. What happened."

When he still acted like he couldn't hear me, I planted my feet on the ground and force him back. Wes stopped, glancing at me. As usual, his face was blank.

"I..." I swallowed the lump in my throat, then taking a deep breathe. "Didn't do it."

I could never... hurt anyone close to me. I could never... hurt anyone I swore to protect. Kahit sa'kin na ang sakit at pagdurusa, huwag lang madamay ang iba.

Ilang sandali akong tinitigan ni Wes. Akala ko'y hindi na siya magsasalita at handa na akong magpahila ulit, pero natigilan ako nang mahina siyang tumango.

"I believe you." he whispered.

"Saw what happened?"

"No. I just trust and believe you." Wes gave a small sigh. "But understand Kairo for now, Finley. He just lost... someone important for him. Kahit na magpaliwanag ka sa kaniya, mauunahan ng sakit ang rason niya. It was you he saw with her, and you were the only one in the vicinity. Right now, that's all he could process, along the pain."

Ibinaba ko ang tingin. Oo nga pala. I didn't think of Kairo's feelings and just became selfish. Pero... ayoko lang na tumagal at walang paliwanag.

Most things would go wrong if both parties refused to communicate. Although I am not good with words, I wanted to explain my side.

"It's worse because it's you. And he..."

Muli akong napatingin kay Wes nang hayaan niyang mamatay sa ere ang sasabihin. I made a small frown, question evident in my eyes.

Pero hindi niya na ito dinagdagan pa. Ano ba ang ibig niyang sabihin? Bakit mas naging masama na ako ang inakala ni Kairo na may kasalanan?

"Just give him time, Finley. Nasisigurado ko namang makikinig siya sa paliwanag mo. Hindi lang sa ngayon."

"Mm."

Nang marinig ang walang-lakas kong sagot ay inulit niya ang paghila. I couldn't really think. Just like all those times I was the reason of someone's death or pain.

Whenever that happens, I just want to lock myself into my own, little dark world where I'm the only person who will battle the monster of loneliness.

This curse... that I seem to have is one of the reasons why I keep myself away from people. Why I don't want to befriend anyone or let them get close to me.